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Mother #3

In the midst of all this madness and chaos

I try to find myself

With all this chaos and confusion

There is so much confusion 

I can't let myself think 

Too many thoughts and questions racing around in my head 

The more answers I get the more questions arise. 

All the questions you can go way? 

Sometimes I think that no matter what I do or how hard i try in the end it doesn't mean anything 

I try to tell myself that everything will be all right 

 But sometimes I wonder who I'm trying to convince 

I try to tell myself to give it a little more time

 I do the best I can begin by 

But deep down I know that it's not enough. 

Something has to give, but what? 

Deep down I know that there's a light at the end of the tunnel.  

Doesn't really matter?

 Should I stay-should I go

 Should I keep trying-should i throw in the towel and walk away

 Do I really want to know the answers? 

Part of me knows the answer 

While the other part refuses to face the questions