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#6

It gets to a point when you wonder if it's even worth all the effort
All the seconds
Hours
Of energy put into your life
All the mistakes that you had made
All the late nights
Spent worrying about others
Worrying about their own problems
When you should've just been worrying about you own
All those hours put into letters that you write to other
Just so re-read them and find something wrong
Just to rewrite the whole thing in different words
The days you can't get out of bed because of all of the the pain
The emotional explosions inside your soul
If you looked into my eyes
And saw my soul
You would see desolation
I've spent hours laying awake at night
Wondering if I should just give up
If I should just give into these thoughts that consume my day and night
These thoughts that consume my dreams while I lay asleep under a sky full of glitter
Those letters that you write to all of the imaginary friends were just to yourself
I was writing pages full of meaningless words
Just to keep myself from falling
I got to a point where I knew I was placed in the wrong world
I was supposed to be placed in the world of Hogwarts
For I am still awaiting my letter
I was supposed to be placed in the world of Camelot
Where wizards rule and knights save the day
I could've been put in any world but this one
This world where we revolve around the sun twenty four hours a day
Seven days a week
For three hundred sixty give days
Give or take
Just to do the same thing over and over again
Just to let our minds ponder the impossible
Just to let our worrys get in the way of
Our own problems
It's all just chaos
And tragedy
And wasted energy and effort

A/n
I don't know if this made any sense at all but it just felt right.