Reawakening » Stiles Stilinski [book 4]

3. The Sun Also Rises

I slowly opened my eyes, feeling a fluttering feeling in my chest. I couldn't help but smile as I turned over and looked at Stiles. He was sleeping soundly right besides me, he looked like an angel. He was so lovely, I couldn't imagine a place I'd rather be. 

Suddenly though, like every other time, it was ripped apart. 

I sat up gasping on a table, chained down. I cried to myself, knowing exactly where I was. I was in the basement again, I was chained down and being tortured again. I cried in pain at the thought of having to relive Gerard's torture once again.. 

I cried, shaking my head as Gerard walked over to me. He was holding a stun rod in his hands, turning it on as I could hear the electricity coming off it. I cried in pain, shaking my head and begging him to stop. He just smirked at me, that smirk I couldn't get out of my mind. 

"Please, please..No-no more.." I cried, not wanting to go through this anymore. 

"then you know what you need to do, don't you?" Gerard said, looking at me. He had this look on his face, like he was reading my mind or something. But that wasn't possible. "You're thinking about it, ending it all. Turning off your humanity side, giving into the monster..I know you've been thinking about it." 

I squeezed my eyes shut, trying to push those thoughts out. 

Then I heard another voice. 

I opened my eyes, coming face to face with Derek. I opened my mouth to say something but no words came out. I watched in shock as he snapped Gerard's neck and ripped my chains off. I cried, thanking him before he pulled me into a tight hug. I hugged him back with as much strength. 

"Thank you..thank you.." I cried, slowly pulling away to look up at Derek. 

"It's okay, you're safe now.." Derek brushed a piece of hair behind my ear. I looked at him, my smile slowly fading as I noticed a look in his eyes. It was the same look Gerard had, like he was trying to read me or something.  "Savannah, I know you're thinking of it. You're thinking of turning your human side off, locking it away and giving into the anger you were so used to..I'm here to tell you...to do it." 

"What?" I looked at him confused. Why would he tell me this? Derek wouldn't tell me to give up, he would never tell me to give up. Derek might be seen as a horrible person, maybe even a heartless person and he seems like it on the outside. God knows I could never say sorry enough for accusing him and judging him. But once you get to know Derek, like really know him like I've come to know him... 

he's a good person, a strong person. Maybe one of the strongest people I've ever met... And Derek's helped me a lot, we've become close and he's become like family to me. And I know in my heart that he would never tell me to give up, especially not after how long it took me to come back last time. He helped me on getting my humanity side back, he wouldn't tell me to give it up. 

"Do it Savannah. Turn your human side off, flip that switch and put yourself out of this misery..please." Derek whispered, looking deep into my eyes. 

"Derek, you forget how long it took me last time..? Last time I was like that, out of control..emotions not there..You forget how long it took me to come back last time? How bad it was when it was off..everything I ruined and lost in the process.."  I asked, tears filling my eyes. 

"You don't deserve this, you did the right thing. You walked away, you looked out for the pack and for Stiles, you protected him..You sacrificed yourself and kept your promise to Stiles..you protected him and gave your life so he could live..You were a hero and this is what you get in return? No, I won't accept that. How is that fair?" Derek said.