Love Me Or Not But It's war between Crimson and Cypress

Chapter 16: Please just Please.

                                          Chapter  16: Please just Please.

              Me and  Blanca made it to Blake’s house. His mother was so worried she didn’t look herself. I ran up to his room and knocked on the door. 

“Blake please open the door. Please.” I said as I knocked.

“What you want Beatrice?” he asked threw the door. He sounded like he was crying. That broke my heart in two. I never ment to hurt him but it happen. It was always Dylan fault why people got hurt. He did the same to all my other ex- boyfriends.

“Please Blake just Please I want to talk to you. Just a few minutes ok.” I said as I put my hands on the door about the door.  I looked at it with tears about to fall. he open the door and my fist fell on his chest and a tear slipped my eyes.

“Look, Blake I’m sorry. I’ve never ment for you to get hurt. The only reason I’m with him is because he always does. Please just forgive me. Stop breaking things your worrying your mother. She told me about your little sister I don’t want you like this when she comes please.”

“STOP DON’T YOU DARE TALK ABOUT MY SISTER. DON’T YOU DARE LIE TO ME. YOU PLAYED WITH MY HEART. YOU HAD ME THINK YOU LOVED ME. YOU ARE JUST A FAKE.” He yelled at me he pushed me into the wall and I looked at him with fear In my eyes.

“I know. And I’m a horrible person. I’m sorry. I may say to myself that I love him but I don’t. the only reason I do is because he has shit on me. Ok, I would have never went back to him but I cant have the secret out. When I’m with him I’m scared, hurt, and I don’t know what to do. I’m weak around him. When I’m with you I feel safe, I’m not scared or hurt. I feel weak but in a good way. I would be with you and I want to. Please believe  me. Please.” I was crying pushed up against the wall with him looking down at me.

“Look, don’t play with me. I see the way you look at him.”  he said as he backed up.

“you see. You see what you want. You don’t see through the lie I put out. I would never do something like I did to you. You can ask Blaze, Cameron any body. This is not who I am. He made me into this. I’m like his personal toy. I get changed if he doesn’t like it. I have to dress like a slut for him. There’s things people don’t know what he does or what he doesn’t. I hide it from the world and I try to hide it from me. I don’t think about. I just think what he wants me to. I’m not going to lie to you Blake. When we touch or kiss I feel I feel loved and and I love the feeling. I get shocks when we touch. They say that only happens when you really love someone. Please just help me. I want to meet your sister, I want to be with you, I want  everything with you.” I said as more tears fell.

“Beatrice what did he do to you? What secret he knows?” he asked as he moved closer to me.

“you have to promise not to judge me. Please don’t judge me.” I said.

“Ok, I wont.” 

“When I was around 13 I was in some big trouble. I was doing weed, drinking and hanging out with gangs. I got a tattoo and I killed someone. I wasn’t sent to jail cause they said that the person that shot the guy died. Dylan never told no one but I’m afraid he well.  I changed that summer because of him. He helped me and I fell for him we dated then he broke up with me. I then moved to New York with my aunt and meet Cameron and Blanca with Edward. I dated cam and made the band. Me and cam broke up and me and Blanca moved back here. That when I started to be a player. Then I started to go out with Dylan again and he broke up with me again. 2 months later you moved out here and we got together.” I said as I looked at the floor. He lifted my chin up and kissed me. He stopped and said “I wont judge you, but, tell me one thing no make that two things.”

“anything.” 

“do you love him?”

“no, I don’t.”

“Do you really love me and want to be with me?”

“I really do love you and yes I would love to be with you but what about Dylan?”

“break up with him.” 

“Easier for you to say.” I said. He chuckled and I looked into his wonderful eyes. Then Blanca walked in and hugged me. I guess she heard the story.

“I’ll help with what ever it is to get you two back together.” she said as she looked from me to Blake. Then Blake looked at me  and said. “You never answered my question. What did he do to you?” I looked at him and I remember the night of a party me and Dylan went to. 

*FLASH BACK*

Me and Dylan walked into a party he’s friend was throwing. Dylan Looked at me and asked to get him a drink. I got me and him a drink and we drank it. I only had one the hole night but he had drink after drink. 

It was now 12:00 and he was drunk he pulled me into a room and locked the door he tried to kiss me but I pushed him away. He just kept on trying and he then pinned me down and will you can guess by now he Raped me. The next day I played of like it was nothing.

*END OF FLASH BACK!*

“HE DID WHAT?” Blake yelled. He got up and I pulled him down.

“STOP, ok I got over it. And it wasn’t the first time I was raped ok. So you need to get over it.” I said as I looked between Blanca and Blake.

“Who else would do that to you?” Blake said.

“Lets see. How about my father, some of his friends. My father watched as his friends Raped me. My mother even tried to Rape me.” I said.

“WHAT THE FUCK.” 

“The only person who gave me a choice to have sex with them was Cameron.” I said as I looked down.

“I would never hurt you like they did. Ok, I would never do that.  You can trust me. But don’t push me away ok. Well, take care of Dylan but I wont leave you ok.” he said as he hugged me.

Pic is of Blake

Song is  how Beat and Blake feel.

this is a heart ful chapter right. i almost cry while writing it lol. any way i hoped you liked it.