Sitting in the drive way of India's house I sorta became lost in my thoughts I fucked up everything I've worked so hard to build with her that night I don't know what came over me I had become so clouded in anger that it drove me to feel nothing I still feel like it wasn't even me having sex with her that night I'd never hurt her on purpose especially because I know what she went through as a kid no one deserves to have somebody do things to them that they have no control over and I know that night I put her in that vulnerable place again
Getting out the car I went to the door and knocked and to my surprise she answered by the look on her face I could tell she still couldn't look at me I hate myself for what I did
"Can we talk"I said staring down at her
"Ugh sure"she said letting me into the house
We sat on the couch and she made sure to keep herself 2feet away from me
"Why are you all way over there"I questioned
"I just think its best if I keep my distance from you"she said looking away
"What do you think Im gonna hurt you or something"?
If looks could kill I'd be dead she looked like she wanted to rip my heart out of my chest like some mortal combat shit
"You already did that Noelle don't act like that night never happened"
"India I'm......"she cut me off
"Why are you even here you wanna give me this wack ass apology and expect me to be cool with the fact that you practically forced yourself on me you know better than anyone what I went through and you still did it"She screamed with tears in her eyes
"Babe I'm sorry okay and I mean that from the bottom of my heart I swear that night I wasn't myself I'd never hurt you on purpose your my everything girl without you I'm barely breathing I wish I could take back that night but I can't but please don't end us because of that "
"I need you"I said as a tear slid down my cheek
She couldn't even look at me
"Please look at me india"
"How will I know that you wouldn't do that to me again"?she questioned
"You know because you know my heart you know that I'd never hurt you like that on purpose I promise babe I wasn't in my right mind that night but it will never happen again"I said looking into her eyes
"I love you"she said wrapping her arms around my neck
"I love you too "I said picking her up off of the couch
"India"
"Yes Noelle"?
"Are you really pregnant"I questioned
"Yes I'm really pregnant Noelle"she said waiting for my reaction
Damn I'm gonna be a father
I just smiled "I love you so much girl and I promise I'm gonna be there every step of the way"
"I love you too papi"she said biting her lips
"I guess its time for make up sex "I said smacking her ass and throwing her down on the couch
"Bring that ass here boyyyyy"she said motioning for me to come to her
"You lame AF kid"I said taking off my shirt
"You love my lame ass though"she said pulling me down for a kiss
