Just a Runaway // Niall Horan // Book 1

Explaining - Chapter 59

Hey, sorry if this chapter is short or boring. 

I'm so tired and I didn't feel like writing at all, but I'm pushing myself to do it, so hm :/. 

Anyways, guys, I'm going to be gone Wednesday - Sunday night. And I mean literally gone. I will have NO wifi or laptop so I won't be able to write at all :/ Sorry :(

Hope you guys are great!

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This could possibly be the worst Christmas ever for me. Considering I never really celebrated Christmas, it was still pretty bad. After I had calmed myself down I got up and everyone was all concerning but I told them to just forget about it, but I knew they wouldn't.

We continued on the day as if nothing happened, but Kaden wouldn't make eye contact with me once, and we didn't tell Alex or Mom what had happened. We just kept it to ourselves, because no one else needed to know anyway.  

I was currently sitting in my bedroom once again, trying to figure out how to handle the situation with Niall. I know he was on Skype 24/7 waiting for me to come online so he could talk to me, but I didn't go on. I didn't want to give in, but deep down I knew I eventually would.

I had my lights off, and since my bed was pushed up to the window, I sat crosslegged, staring out my window, as there was still some snow falling. It's been doing this all day, lightly snowing with a slight breeze that would give you goosebumps.

I looked over at my laptop considering going online, but I couldn't quite push myself to do it yet. I could just imagine Niall sitting my the computer, shaking his leg due to nervousness. I could imagine him tapping his fingers on the counter to a beat, trying to do something while he waits. Knowing how impatient he his, he's probably dying inside. 

I let out a sigh, and pulled the laptop to me, and set it right in front of my legs. I scrolled over to the Skype icon in the bottom of my screen, and clicked it, and then changed my status to online. The first thing I saw was Niall's green icon, and I'm not sure why, but I closed my eyes tight, just waiting to hear that familiar tune. 

I waited for a moment, in the same position, and then the sound rung in my ears. I hesitated for a moment before accepting. I didn't know how he was going to react, and I didn't really know what I was going to say! What would I say? Hey Niall, I'm sorry for crying over something you did, or freaking out. Yeah, psh don't worry it's fine. Yeah right.

I watched the black screen load, and then I saw his face. He looked so relieved to see me, but yet he looked sad. His face looked pale and he looked just tired in general.

"Colena-".

I cut him off and held up my hand.

"Niall, don't start. Don't even worry about it alright?"

"Cole, I'm so sorry, I should've talked to you about it first."

I relaxed my shoulder, and pressed my lips tightly together. I didn't really know what to say. I only had things to ask.

"Why didn't you ask me?"

He shrugged and looked down at his hands in his lap.

"I really don't know, I mean she just asked me, and it was just sort of part of the moment, you know? I just thought it wouldn't be brought up and everything would be okay."