milk and honey

fly on the wall

i see how it is
how you wanted me to think
that you hated me
when you still think about me
you must if you check my stories
you're just a fly on the wall.
i'm okay with that
i'm okay if you can't be more than that yet
or ever
because that is enough for me to know
that maybe you never hated me at all
and you still do care about me
i shouldnt get my hopes up too high
because here i go sounding clingy
and crazy
again
but i promise
all i ever wanted
was for you to be happy.
you beautiful space bean.
i hope you found all you were looking for
and continue to find it.
never stop watering your flowers
or your weeds
because soon those weeds will be
flowers
and those flowers, will be beautiful
concepts of your mind.