milk and honey

for you

you didn't want an apology
so i didn't give you one.
i bit my tongue until it bled
because thats what i'd do for you.
i wiped my tears and smiled,
because thats what you wanted.
a simple goodbye.
but nothing is ever that easy, darling.
maybe when i'm out of state
in 3 months you can finally live your life
without worry of seeing me in it.
that goes for you, her, them & you two.
i realize you all don't want me
around
or in your lives
ever again
so i'll disappear and make it easy for you.
because it only can ever be easy on one of us.
i fucked you over
so i know i deserve any icing out
you will give me.
but am i allowed to say it hurts?