milk and honey

zombie

time passes
and i dont know
the time
or the day
but thats the least
frightening
thought on my mind.
i cant locate my feelings
i can tell im angry
but i cant get angry
i just stare blank out the window,
and i'll hit you with a snarky comeback,
there was a time when i would boil
with anger
and become red with rage.
i'd yell to make myself
feel more powerful,
picked that one up from you, dad.
there were times i'd be sobbing
in my sheets
because of the way somebody said
something to me
and now
i'll just act like
the stove isnt on fire as place my hand
on it.
what is happening to me?