milk and honey

colorado

my mouth isnt connected to my brain
its like im saying things that dont make sense
im mixing up my words,
every sentence is a tongue twister,
a new barrel to jump over.
i cant formulate anything correctly
although
my mind says its right
i think about it in my head
and it clicks
then i speak
and it all goes to shit
kinda funny how that works huh?
i get involved, and it all
crumbles away,
into nothingness.
i am alot better
im not toxic for myself
or for you
or them
or anyone for that matter
anymore.
but that doesnt mean
that it still
isnt hard
some days
and that still doesnt mean
it doesnt hurt anymore
because it constantly hurts.
im just pushing through.
because i will not be that person
ever again.
i'm ready to start new, and
not hurt anyone ever again.
i hope by moving on, and away from this
fucked up town
i can get peace of mind.