milk and honey

brother

i know you think i was following you in the same path but actually you showed me
that,
that's not the life to live
i don't want drugs to be another thing
that is controlling me.
what you don't see
is that i'm
already weighed down
by my mental
illnesses, and eating disorders
and at this point?
i could care less if you believe me or not.
i won't be there to argue about the little
things anymore
know i'm watching
over you
and i hope and pray
that you beat
this ugly addiction
before it beats you.
i love you so much.
your little sister,
Courtney.

P.S.
this is the written version of the note i was going to leave my brother, this is something i do still hope to give him, i do want to live to see him beat his addiction, and maybe i can.