I Simply (Love)Hate You

11.

I ran inside with the groceries, and quickly locked the door behind me. I ran to the kitchen and put all the groceries in their places. The bottle of vodka was just out of place, I sat down and just stared at it. I was mentally slapping myself for buying it in the first place. "You're such an idiot Avni" I said out loud. But at the same time I had heard of people drinking their problems away, and it was so tempting. I got up and got the Sprite from the fridge and a glass as well. I put it next to the vodka and yet again just stared at it. I poured Sprite in my glass and started drinking that, still mentally questioning myself weather I should drink the vodka or not. I was curios to feel being drunk!
I decided it was a stupid idea, and quickly grabbed the flask and put it in cupboard.
Instead I stripped off my cloths and filled up my tub. I got in and started feeling more relaxed, but it was hard to forget the flask that could make me forget my problem. I got up from the tub and got the sprite, glass and vodka and sat back in.

I opened the flask and the smell of ethanol started spreading, I poured it in along with some sprite, and without thinking any further I slammed it down. The taste of vodka was weak, being mixed with the sprite. I mixed another one, and slammed one more down. I grabbed my phone and put on my sad playlist. I slammed another one down. I took myself to my head feeling a bit dizzy, but comfortable. I went with the comfortable and slammed another down.

I like that song "I am wearing, yeah I am still wearing your jeans!! Still role them up, still got that hole in my knee!!" Shit! I need more. Mhmm! Still taste like ass! Hmm.. I should talk to Rajveer, it's important. He has to know I want him too! But where does he live? I'll ask Sanju! Where is my phone, ohh maybe it's under the towel. Hmm no? Wait what is it that's playing? OH! There it is hahahahahah, I am so stupid! Oh wait, maybe not Sanju, maybe I should ask Tushar! Yeah that's a good idea!

- Hey Tushar, I need Rajveers address.
Damn it's hard to concentrate on the taps. Send! Now that I have to talk to him, I should probably feel more comfortable, more vodka? Mhm sounds good! Haha why am I such an idiot? I mean why do I have to be so emotional, we both like each other and he is soooooo hot, like really hot. Ohh he answered ohh that's like walking distance! I should get going. Where's that towel, uhh a blowdryer. That'll do. "Ouch" maybe keep it a bit away from the.. What is it called again? Sky, skin! The skin. That's enough! "Cloth!!!!" Why am I marching? Haha it's fun, hahah! Uh a drink to go? - ups no, that's illegal.

Off we goooooooooo. Where am I? Shit I am still outside my house, whaaaat the hell?
Music would be good, let me just plug them headphones in, aaannnnddd play. Hmm why does it sound like this? What the, ohh I should probably connect it to the phone. "I was here, I lived, I loved, I was here" I am good at humming. I should totally become a singer, I would be like better than Beyoncé, WHAT! no, no one is better than her. Maybe a hummer of Beyoncé? Or nah. Uh I am here, right? Oh wait maybe not, that's not his car. Is it? No, wrong house, but this is the address! What is going on, why is the bush moving like that? "Stop moving stupid bush!" Hmm.. "Why won't you listen? I haven't done anything to you. Oh is it because you're Rajveers bush, and you are mad at me too? Huh? Is that it?" Little idiot bush. I hate it.
"Avni?!" I know that voice. Maybe I should take a look! "Ohh Rajveer, just the one I was looking for."
"What are you doing here?"
"Well I think we should have a talk!!" I should probably go a little closer, ARGGGH!
"Are you okay? What the hell is wrong with you?" Aww he saved me for my very dangerous trip over the sidewalk. Stupid side walk, ouch my toe hurt now!. But his eyes, they are so brown and deep, I could drawn in them! "Your eyes." Why does he look so surprised.
"Are you drunk?" Ohh crap.. He can't know that. Okay think, I am not drunk! Shit maybe I should actually say it.
"No.. Heh, no? What makes you think that?"
"First of all, your breath smell like liqueur. Second, your reflections sucks. Third, you somehow made it clear that you couldn't talk to me!" Ohh sadness in those beautiful eyes, because of me. I could cry, should I cry? NO! You're strong idiot. I could really take a nap. Wait what? Ha no. This whole situation is getting really embarrassing.
"I am not drunk, I am just.. Just tired!" Yeah that was a great saving. WOAH! What the hell?? Why is pulling me closer! It's actually nice. I can feel his breath on my lips, and it's making my skin crawl, but in a good way. I seriously wouldn't mind kissing him, should I kiss him? I should, *leaning in*!
"Avni! No!.. I"
Ouch, he pushed me back, that really hurt. Screw him, he is not even nice! He ugly, and stupid! Urgh, why am I still in his arms, I am leaving NOW!
"I don't want to take advantage of you Avni! Not like this."
Huh? Take advantage of me! He wouldn't, he would just... Shit that stupid bush is moving  again.
"Let me get you home!" What is it with him? Should I just follow him? Okay, I will let him drop me off.
"Here get in" woahh!! We are moving, shit this funny. Love it when he hits the beach, no breaks! Nailed it!
"We're here, wait let me help you inside, so I know you're okay!" He grabs me by my arm, uhh, his body is hot! HAHAHAH! Actually!
"Where is your keys?" Who is talking to, is there someone behind me? No.. What? Ohh! My keys! I get it. And we're in.