I Simply (Love)Hate You

12.

"Okay, could you like just stand up straight?" What's going on in here? why is the room spinning? Make it stop!! "URGH! make it stop Rajveer!" Ahh, am I on the bed, it soft. No I am on Rajveer, but he's soft too. That'll do! "Okay Avni, your bed is like right here. Can you just cooperate with me DAMN IT!" This is actually softer. Okay I am okay, I think. Ugh, the room wont stop spinning, it's making me sick, crap I am feeling sick. OH NO SHIT! Toilet NOW! RUN!!!!! "WARDHER, ehhh, WARDHER!!" Aww, he is holding my hair. "WARDHER!" Ugh I am better. "So better now, I should just wash my mouth first!" Rajveer nods, helps me up and over to the sink. I am too handicapped right now. Seriously I can not even right now, okay done. Back to bed now. "Here let me help you back into bed!"

As he pulled my blanket over me, I felt a little less dissy and more comfortable than I had been for the last hour. As I saw Rajveer walk towards the door, I quickly realized he was actually leaving me, but I hadn't talked to him. And as I though of it with a more clear head, it was probably a bad idea to even talk about it.

"Rajveer! Don't go please!" It just slipped out my mouth, and I think I regretted it at the moment too, but as he walked towards me, I lifted the blanket to hint him to get in under it. So he did, and it just felt so natural, I lifted my head and he slipped his arm under my neck, and I just buried my face in his chest, and I felt him stroking my hair with his other arm. Laying there with him just felt right, we just fitted into each others arms. I looked up at his face, I cupped his face with my hand. "Thanks Rajveer!" I said and kept his eyes locked in mine. He pulled my hand to his lips, and placed a gentle kiss on my palm. "You're so crazy Avni! You're even making me go crazy!" He said and pulled me closer to him.

I woke up the next morning, facing my window and saw rain drops on the window, I love rain in the morning. Just not what it did to my hair. I laughed at myself, but felt an instant pain run through my head. I took myself to my head and thought of what I had done since it was hurting this way. I didn't really get headaches. And then I remembered. I was in the tub, and the vodka bottle, and then like a huge timeroom that was just black, and then.. Oh My God! Rajveer holding my hair while I was throwing my guts up. And that.. I slowly turned around, and found Rajveer in a deep sleep. I just froze, not knowing what to do. And as I kept looking at him, I felt more and more relaxed. I watched him as he breathed in and out, and how full the lashes surrounding his beautiful dark brown eyes were. I noticed a tattoo on his overarm. It wasn't much, just two lines. I don't know why I touched it, but I did and he started moving, and before I knew it, I was wrapped in his arms again, and that comforting feeling came back ass soon as my skin touched his. I just stayed there, breathing his sent, and just feeling his body close to mine. I eventually fell asleep again, and when I woke up again I noticed a certain emptiness. I looked to my side, and found no one. And my heart just instantly broke, I laid there just looking at where he had been, wishing he was still there.

"Oh you're up!" I heard a familier voice call from the door, but it wasn't the voice I hoped to hear. "Rajveer called this morning and told me to check on you. But that kind of surprises me, since I thought you weren't speaking to him, so how does he know that you aren't feeling well?" Sanju said and dumped next to me with a tray of tee, eggs, beans and bacon - ohh and my painkillers. I looked down at it, and the sight of it made want throw up, but the smell caught me and we both started eating. "So tell me Av, how does he know?" She looked slightly annoyed. I didn't know what to say.

"I wasn't feeling so well, and for some unknown reason Rajveer dropped by, and I told him I wasn't feeling well, and asked him kindly to leave!" I said and just stuffed my mouth with bacon. She looked at me and dropped her mad face, and just continued eating. "So what are you wearing tonight?" I looked at her in confusion as I slowly realized it was the day of her henna, or mendhi. A personal favorite, the bride will get her hands and feet covered with tiny designs. And somewhere in between all the designs, the grooms name will be written, and then afterwards he has to find it. It's not only the bride, it's actually just the name of the one a girl love. I love it, it's so romantic. And then returning to her question, I hadn't even thought of it. "I seriously don't know.. ohh maybe the one with the deep back.!" I said and got up to find it. "Seriously Av, how many times do I have to say it? You have like a 100 suits with a deep back" She said and slapped my overarm. The one I was thinking about was a full out punjabi one. Royal blue, and glittering, as there was silver stones from the shoulders and down to just beneath the breasts. She looked at it and gave me an approving look "Definatly" She said and grabbed it. "Why haven't I seen this?" I grabbed it from her hands, and placed it on the chair and said "Well you have, you was with me when I bought it!". And then it hit me! "Aren't we like super busy today?" she dropped the toast. "We actually are, and I just remembered we are actually late as well, because we actually have an appointment to get our nails done.!" I just looked at her, and could literally strangel her. How could she forget something that expensive, and that we already paid for? I ran to the bathroom and started brushing my teeth. I felt gross knowing I probably had vomit on me somewhere, or maybe just everywhere. I was still dressed, and just grabbed my coat and Sanju and ran down to the car and headed to nail salon.

After we were done there, we headed to the hall check on everything. Uncle was in the middle yelling at everyone for not doing the job probably, but as soon as he spotted Sanju and I, he automatically became calm. "There you are, my two daughters." He said and hugged us. After that I went to drop Sanju off so that she could get ready, I drew home and took a quick shower. I packed my cloths and jewelry, and was just about to run off, when I looked at the bed. The thought of Rajveer rushed back to my mind, and I felt a comforting and warm feeling. The thought of being in his arms made me question my decision, from the night of the sangheet. I felt my phone vibrate in my hand, and got thrown back into reality. I continued down to the car, and started driving towards Sanju to get ready. I knew Rajveer would be dropping by tonight. And I knew it was going to be soon awkward he most defiantly knew I was drunk the night before.