I Simply (Love)Hate You

15.

It was late and after clearing up, and dropping Sanju off back home. I started driving home I was extremely tired, and was having a hard time keeping my eyes open. I reached home and saw Rajveer waiting for me. I was too tired for this why couldn't he understand that I wanted to be left alone. "You know you really hurt me by saying what you did!" He said walking towards me. "I could make you happy, if only you gave me a chance!" He said reaching out for me, placing his big hands on my waist pulling me closer. I didn't fight it for some reason I was craving his touch and it scared me. "I can make you happy." He said lifting my face up, so that I was looking directly into his eyes. I could feel his breath on my lips and I seriously wanted to give in, but my stubbornness took over. I wanted him to suffer. I snuggled into him and wrapped my arms around him pulling him closer. His grib around my waist tightened, and my arms went around his neck pulling him downwards as my face snuggled into his neck, breathing loud on purpose. I could feel he was enjoying it and pulled back, without looking at him I walked past him and locked my self in, he grabbed the door just in time before it shut. He followed me up the stairs, and as I opened the door to my apartment, he pushed me in shutting the door behind him, he had this huge grin on his. "What do you think you're doing?" I said crossing my arms. His smile instantly dropped. "Well I thought you were hinting me to come up!" He said and seemed confused. "What made you think that?" I asked, he took himself to the head. "When you snuggled into me outside!" I looked at him, and I couldn't help it. A smirk formed on my lips, I quickly took it off. "What are you talking about?" I asked acting as if nothing had happened. He stood up straight, and stormed towards me and pushed me up against the wall. Crap he was taking control! "You know when you did this" He said placing his face on my neck breathing loudly, and putting his hands around waist. And for some stupid reason I closed my eyes, but they quickly opened as he let go of me. I stood there craving more. "I still don't recall!" I said with an unsteady tone, trying to keep it cool. A bit of me hoping he would do it again. "Oh well, I'll be on the couch if you need me!" He said walking towards the living room. What the hell did he think he was doing? "No.. you're leaving" I said following him into the living room, where he was already unbuttoning his shirt. The sight of that just made me mute. "Well I am too tired to drive home. And I wouldn't be able to make you happy if I am dead" he said throwing his shirt to the side, laying down looking at me. I wasn't really able to talk, I wish it was because I was tired, but it was this mans toned body. All though I managed to say  "I am only letting you stay so you don't die, and most importantly I am too tired to drive myself!" . And as that was said I left, and got ready for bed and laid there. I couldn't stop thinking of that pile of hotness on my couch.

As I was half asleep I heard footsteps, "Avni I can't sleep, can I lay here!" I just looked at him through the darkness. I started getting up to move out to the couch, but he grabbed my wrist. He sat on the bed, pulling me in so that I was on his lap. I was really tired so I rested my forehead against his. So close I could feel his breath on my lips. "Why do you fight it?" He asked cupping my face while stroking my cheek with his thumb. "Not something I want to talk about right now!" I said, he bit his lip. I heard the rain falling outside, and it calmed me. I brushed his lips with mine, as I ran my hand down his toned body. "I am tired, I want to sleep!" I said. I tried getting up, but he pulled med back down locking me in his strong grib. He laid down, and I was now resting on his chest. I didn't move, I was comfortable and within seconds I was dead asleep.

I woke up and checked the clock, it was 7.08am I could still hear the rain. I loved rain. I got up from the bed, and opened my window. I rested my arm on the window frame as the fresh rain hit my palm. I sat up in the bigger frame, and opened the window wider. I sat the looking down into the street. It was quiet. "What are you doing? Come back here!" I heard Rajveer husk from behind me. I had never heard his morning voice, and hearing it now set something on fire inside of me. I ignored him though "Please..." He said, I didn't replay. He finally got up and threw me over his shoulder and then on the bed, where he got on top. He held my gaze, I just stared at him not knowing what he was going to do next. "You don't fight me until last minute when I do stuff like this. It's like you want it too. You just don't to admit it" He held my gaze. He was right. "I want to enjoy the rain by the big window in the living room. It's my favorite weather" I said, knowing it wasn't what he wanted to hear. He got up, and pulled me closer by legs, and threw me over his shoulder. He walked to the living room, and placed me on the couch. He grabbed all the pillows and blankets he could see and threw them by the window. He then sat down and motioned me to come over. I got up and sat beside him, I opened the window and started looking over the park behind the building. He laid his arm around me and pulled me in closer. "Why do you love rain so much!" He asked, running his fingertips up and down my arm, doing a comfortable tickle. I didn't face him. "It's just so calming, and freeing." I replayed, again reaching out for the rain to hit my palm. "But for some reason I can't swim!"

We just sat there till the rain stopped falling. Something that didn't surprise me anymore was that this felt natural and right. Maybe we were right for each other.