I Simply (Love)Hate You

9.

He ran up and towards me. I stood there not knowing what to do, I looked at Derek who was just staring at Rajveer. He came close and cupped my face and I saw concern plastered on his beautiful face. WHAT? NO!!!!! "What happened, are you okay? I am so sorry Avni!" He said, and as I was standing there my hate just took over, and I just pushed him off of me. I felt the tears pushing again. "Oh my gosh.. what are you doing to me!" I whispered to myself. I turned to Derek who seemed attentive, watching every move Rajveer made. "I'll take it from here, you can go now! And thank you for everything" I said and gave him a smile, he was wearing a stoneface, and nodded.

"Here this is my personal number, call me if you need anything. And I mean ever-ry-thing!" He said and he started walking towards the police car, and so did the other officer. As he was about to get in the driversseat he gave me one glare and then looked at Rajveer still noticing his every move.

I tunred to talk to Rajveer, who looked devastated. He kept looking at both Derek and me, and then anger started taking over his features. He looked at me and I saw hurt and anger mixed in his eyes. He came closer. "So you just forget me, and go with someone else?" He says, tears running from his eyes. I look at him with anger. He had no right, he had absolutely no right to be mad at me!

"Don't you even dare Rajveer!! I haven't done anything, and I am not going to either! You mean absolutely nothing to me. You ignore me when you see me, and you run off with Anu, drunk! And you try to get close with me right after! You have NO RIGHT RAJVEER! NO RIGHT!! I said and stomped past him heading for the door. He grabbed my wrist just as I stomped by, and there it was again. That feeling, the one that made everything seem so right. But reality quickly took over, and I tried shaking it off., but out of luck. He turned me around, and faced me and locked his eyes in mine.

"I am sorry Avni! I am!! But you just don't get it! You are all I think about, whenever I wake up, you're on my mind, and I unlock my phone, and I look at this picture of you I took back when we ate sushi, where you're smiling in your beautiful Indian gavn. And every time the smell og coffee hit me, I think of the first time we meet. The day I ran into you and you spilled your coffee on me. Everything I do and see reminds me of you! I kissed Anu to get you out of my head, and because I am so crazy about you, I thought of you the whole time. And I felt instant regrade. I promise!" He finished and and he looked at me and I saw it in his eyes he was sorry!

But I just couldn't! For some reason he had something over me, like a spell and today I realized how much, him doing something with someone else  hurt me! And I couldn't let that happen I would never ever let anybody hurt me! So I let go of his hands, and said "I am Sorry Rajveer, you hurt me, And can't let that happen ever again!" I said and I left him standing there. I ran up the stairs and locked myself in, and started crying so much!

What was happening to me? Why was he so important to me? I leaned up against the front door, and slowly came in sitting position, pushing my legs up under me. And crying, and the tears just wouldn't stop, and Sanju kept calling me, and I was getting stressed out, so I just threw my phone towards the wall, and kept crying. I got up striped off my Indian gavn, and filled my tub with hot water and bobbles. I sat down and kept crying. And I just sat there thinking about everything. I was defiantly better of without him than with him. I got up threw on a robe and threw myself at my bed, my hair was wet and was making my bed all wet. I fell asleep with tears streaming out of my eyes.

**

I woke up the next morning with a dry mouth. So I dragged myself to the kitchen, where I saw Sanju, with a concerned look on her face. She was cooking breakfast and She quickly took me by my shoulders and placed me on the chair in the kitchen, she got me a glass of water and sat down on her knees. She was really concerned.

"So I see why I couldn't reach you after 3.25am last night" She said and pointed at the counter. I looked at my phone, which was completely fallen apart. And as she was stroking my hair she looked at me dead in the eyes! "I also found Rajveers car parked outside with him inside of it sleeping!" She said. And as soon at she mentioned Rajveers name I just couldn't hold it together anymore. I was too broken to keep strong. So I just burst out in tears, just started running through everything that had happened.

"We meet the day, I meet Tushar. But earlier as we bummed into each other at the coffeeshop where I spilled my coffee over him, and  he was just so rude and childish and I just hate people like that, you know. And then I met him later that day, and he was trying to apologize and when he walked me home he tried to kiss me, and I was so close to kiss him as well, but I didn't. And then the day after when I burned my hand, he came by and we spent an hour together. And then I burned my hand and he took care of me. And then at your haldi he kept flirting with me, and he even came by after with sushi, and we had such a good time, and in between all these events I got feelings for him. But then I refused to kiss him after he burned his mouth with wasabi paste, and he just started ignoring me, even the day when you and Tushar was out that day. And yesterday he just walked past me, and he kissed Anu, and then tried to kiss me after, and then I just ran off. And then I got pulled over for driving too slow because I couldn't see with tears in my eyes. So this cop Derek and some other cop drew me home where Rajveer was waiting and he just told me how much he likes me, and how he thinks of me all the time. And I just couldn't, he hurt me so much and I just couldn't risk something like that so I walked away. And now I am just so upset." I finished and she just pulled me into hug, and kissed my forehead.

"Aww Avni! Why didn't you say anything?" She asked I saw tears in her eyes, I looked down and took a deep breath.

"I convinced myself that if I said it out loud, it would become reality! And I just couldn't have that!" I said, and just started hulking again. She ran her hand over my back comforting me, she pulled me into the living room where I almost laid on her, we watched netflix, and she started braiding my hair. And we just talked about it all, really taking a huge weight off of my shoulders.