Leaving You

Zayn's P.O.V

At a benefit concert the boys and I did today the crowd was amazing. Sure it was an older demographic, but they were our friends. They didn't talk about anything bad against us. Posters in the audience were best wishes for Leah and Sasha. A month ago we found out we were having a girl. We would be seeing her in three short months. Lately we had various concerts in England. In late January we would go on a seven month world tour for our latest album. We attended a few award shows and won 10 new awards. It felt like we were taking off again. Our tours sold out in three minutes.

Things at home weren't all that great though. Leah and I argued more. It was over things like me buying expensive things and being protective over my girls, which I had every right to. I spent more and more nights on the couch. Our make ups were amazing, but everything started becoming predictable. I couldn't take her on holiday anymore until she had the baby. She couldn't come on road trips or flights to our gigs. I had to run out to get anything she craved which was anything miles away.

We were on the bus from Bristol to London. It would be a few hours until we would get home. Niall joined me on the couch. Whenever I look at him I see how jealous I am of him. I couldn't get the smile Leah gave him out of my head from two months ago. And how she spent a whole two weeks together while he was in his coma.

"Hey lad !" He smiled.

"Hey Niall. What's up ?" I asked him.

"Nothing, good show tonight. How's Leah ?" He immediately changed the subject to my fiancé.

"Good we decided on a date for the wedding. Well Leah picked May 16." I smiled. Sasha would be four months old and we wanted to enjoy our honeymoon. "I booked our honeymoon in Paris the city of love !" I exclaimed at him. He laughed knowing that it was not my decision.

"Hey how about you come over to my flat for a jam session ?" He offered. It seemed like a good idea actually. I needed a break and I had some words I needed to get out.

"Yeah sure. I'll have the bus take me to your place." We smiled. Both of us were excited like children for time to write with each other.

Three hours later Niall and I were talking about songs. We told each other our current favourites and picked up some ideas.

"Zayn could you get my song book on my bed please ?" Niall asked.

"Yeah" I said getting up. I left him alone playing some new notes for a song. He wanted to get the lyrics down before we forgot them. I pushed open the door to his bedroom. My eyes came upon the open notebook. Many good songs were written in here. I picked it up to see a new song. My face frowned while I read it.

I'll Never Have You

You're his girl  

His love 

His one and only 

He loves you 

And you love him 

But I love you 

You're his and I'll never have you 

I'll never tell you how I feel 

I'll never hold you in my arms 

I'll never run my finger through your chestnut hair 

At least now ill have your eyes 

You might be his but in my heart your mine 

I'm in love with you and you'll never know 

But I know that I'll never have you

Chestnut hair and blue eyes ? She's someone else's ? He wrote about Leah. Niall is in love with Leah. My best friend is in love with my fiancé. I walked out of the room and handed Niall his shut notebook.

"I've gotta go. Leah needs me." I smiled while I lied to him.

"Okay rain check ?" He asked hurt

"Yeah of course." I practically ran out of his flat and to my car. My mind was racing with thoughts. I should've seen this coming. How could I have not seen them fall in love before my eyes ?

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