Leaving You

Leah's P.O.V

My blue eyes stared at the brown door of Niall's suite. Something in me just wouldn't move forward. I just stood there while doctors and nurses passed me. Finally, my feet scuffed forward. My heart raced as more of his room came into my vision. However when I walked in, it was empty except for Niall. I couldn't believe he was alone.

Slowly, I checked around the curtains before heading back to a lifeless Niall. He had a few missing tubes which was good. That meant he was getting better. Guilt washed over me knowing that he has been alone for who knows how long. He friends had stuffy going on, but still they could take turns. What if he woke up and no one was here ? He would be heartbroken.

All at once tears came to me. He could never wake up and I could lose the love of my life. It felt as everything in my life was crashing down on me. I grabbed Niall's hand tightly. It was freezing to the touch. My body leaned into his bed frame.

"I'm in love with you Niall." I said between tears. I got the shock of my life when he squeezed my hand. My eyes grew wide at the reaction.

"Oh my god Niall wake up please. I need you." I cried out to him. However, he remained in his coma. On TV they said that in comas people would squeeze back on hands. Usually that meant that they would be coming back soon. I smiled at all the machines connected to him. He was going to wake up and I was going to be there. My eyes became heavy suddenly. I was tired from the two hour ride back and all the tears sure weren't helping. My hand let go of his to get comfy in the chair. I curled into the chair in a ball. After I was good, I grabbed Niall's hand, I held his hand all through my sleep.

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I felt a pressure on my cheek. My sleep quickly ended as my eyes opened to see a scruffy Zayn. I jerked back into my chair still attached to Niall.

"Holy shit Zayn !" I yelped at him with scared eyes. My heart beat rose as I caught my lost breath. I smacked his shoulder with the back of my hand. His kiss nearly gave me a heart attack.

"Sorry babe I missed you. I haven't seen you in two days. How's Hannah ?" His deep voice made me nervous. I had to tell him about me leaving, if he hadn't already notice my missing things.

"Who is Hannah ?" I asked with a face.

"Your sick friend in West London. There isn't a Hannah is there." He look down at the ground. I was caught in a lie. A big one, I was M.I.A for two days. My phone buzzed with new texts from him that I never answered. I felt bad ignoring him, but I wanted to be away from everything.

"I'm sorry Zayn. I lied, you were right. I was in Manchester. I went home to reflect on everything." My hand was still attached to Niall's as I explained myself. His face was hurt as it took it all in.

"Why'd you lie ?"

"I needed some personal time."

"Personal time for what ? You wouldn't respond to me, nothing. I love you Leah." It was getting intense in the room. Usually if we fought, we'd wait till we were alone and sorted it out. Niall was out so it was just us.

"I'm not happy Zayn. I love you and I will always. Someone gave me good advice and I took it." He was now moving in a circle fretting at me. His hands were on his head before they lowered to his face.

"What was the advice ?" His eyes were hurt now. He knew what was coming.

"I though and thought. I checked into a hotel today with my stuff. I need a break from you, from your fame. Everything I just need some time." I looked up at Zayn now. He was leaned up against the wall adjacent to me. His face was covered from me.

"Did I do something ?" Hands no longer covered his face now. In my vision all I saw was him crying. Eyes were deep red and watery.

"I caved in. There is too much in my life. I need to go and find myself before I have this baby."

"I can't believe your leaving me. After everything we've been through." Zayn was now getting angry at me. His face was pissed at me. Every breath I took he was watching intently.

"I need this Zayn. I'm questioning everything about my life. All my choices are being reflected......" I trailed off at my last word.

"Like us." My blue eyes looked down at the white tiles on the floor. It was empty and cold just how I felt. Everything in me told me to hug and kiss away his anger. I knew that I couldn't though. Before he could exit, I stopped him.

"I still love you." I shouted at him. He stopped in his tracks. Teary eyes looked at me with disgust. He didn't even bat away tears. I hurt him badly. His feet carried him away from me. I didn't even get an I Love You back. That hurt the worst.

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