Leaving You

Zayn's P.O.V

Leah and I had laughed over baby names for two hours. She like the name Nova for a girl and Joshua for a boy. I on the other hand liked Sasha for a girl and Finnegan for a boy. Obviously, she stuck by her choices and swore by them. Her dad and sister loved Sasha for a girl and her mum loved Finnegan. She frowned and whinned how she's the one carrying this child and that she should decide. Her mother fired back by saying that it took two people to create, her words making her husband cringe. I couldn't help but laugh at little at her dad's being when we talked about Leah and I being involved in that way. Only if he knew the half of stuff her and I do.

At the present, she was napping mid day. My focus was on Twitter for the most part. With a smile I snapped a picture of my beautiful fiancé. Her face was hidden in the pillow so she couldn't get mad at me for posting her without makeup.

@ZaynMalik 

@LeahSanchez babe is restin in her hospital bed. Her and little Sasha or Finnegan are doing good ! Xx #BabyMalik

It was amazing to watch the outpouring of love we got in just minutes. #BabyMalik was trending and well wishes were granted to us. Just knowing that they still cared. My band mates even congratulated us on her pregnancy. Everyone was happy in this moment. I couldn't be even happier just watching her beauty as she slept. Knowing that in just seven months I'd be a father was everything I ever dreamed. Her sleepy eyes drooped open at the squeak of my chair. I tried to shift in the uncomfortable rest and was unsuccessful.

"Hey babe." Leah smiled sleepily. I kissed her on the lips lightly and smiled at her beauty.

"Sorry I woke you up. Everyone on Twitter is going mad for Sasha/Finnegan. The boys wanna see us, they're coming later today. So you can go back to sleep." I was now leaned into her bed perched. My fingers combed through her hair as she just listened. Her blue eyes starring straight at my face warmly.

"I actually miss those idiots. It's been like a month since a concert." Her laughed echoed through the room. I loved that cheery laugh, everytime it sent me into hysterics. Now the mood was a bit more somber so I held it in. I missed the boys, but we all had lives now. Louis and Eleanor had Luke the first one direction baby, he was four now. Liam and Dani had been married for two years now. Meanwhile Harry was in on and off relationships with some girl. And poor Niall was just dumped by his girlfriend of two years. It seemed for the most part that we were all happy, but our contract with Syco was over this year. That stress was for another day though.

"We have two concerts next week. Then we go into talks with management about our contract."

"Bloody management !" Leah exclaimed with laughter. She knew first hand what assholes they could be. Right now they are probably pissed that I told the fans about the baby and not them. I was ecstatic about the baby. Management was irrelevant to my situation with Leah. It was about her, the baby, and I.

"Hello Leah ? Hi I'm Doctor Cooper. I'm the prenatal specialist." The new guest introduced herself to Leah first then she came to me.

"I'm her fiancé Zayn Malik." I interject. She smiled at me and went back to her.

"I want to get you in another sonogram. I wanna see everything for myself. They are carting up the machine now." Doctor Cooper explained. I felt a sudden tug for my hand. A cold hand connected with my warm one. I gave my beautiful girl a smile and a light kiss on the cheek. She pulled me in closer as if to protect her from anything.

Once the machine rolled in she squeezed harder. Even my hand squeezed hers back. As it came closer my heart raced, I was going to see my little baby. The one I created with my amazing partner. In this moment all of our intimate times came flashing back. I loved them and I hurt them. However when it happened I didn't know that she was pregnant, not that it excuses it. I was going to make it up to her for lying, cheating, and even worse physically hurting her.

Doctor Cooper explained what was going to happen to Leah during the sonogram. It felt like a twisted version of a jelly sandwich. All she did was nod and squeeze my hand harder. It felt like it would snap any minute, but she was scarred even for her second one. I watched in awe as the doctor layered on the jelly over Leah's belly. It was weird, she didn't have a baby bump. Her small tummy was still there, it was amazing to think that a baby was growing in there.

"There is the head right there. That's your baby." Cooper exclaimed at us. Her smile was huge as was mine. I sat just starting at the life. He/she was absolutely beautiful. In just 7 months I'd get to hold the baby. A tear welted in my eye. My hands immediately brushed it away.

"Babe that's our baby. Finnegan/Sasha is growing inside of you." Instantly at my words I cried. Leah looked at me and cried with me. My manhood instantly flew out the window. She leaned into me holding onto my warm being. Wet droplets streamed down my husky cheeks. I never thought I'd be crying. However, I must admit I did get MISTY when I proposed.

"It's too soon to know the gender, but we should know around fourth month along. I'll leave you two alone." The prenatal doctor walked out with the machine almost as quickly as she came in. All I could do was hug my soon to be wife.

"I can't believe we are going to be parents. We need to go shopping life asap. Nova is going to need diapers, formula, baby wash, clothes, and furniture. Oh my god what have we gotten ourselves into ?" All of the sudden she started crying. She became overwhelmed by the needs if this child. It killed me inside to see her like this.

"Leah I'm here and so is both of our families. And Finnegan/Sasha is going to have her cousin Luke Tomlinson to play with. El and Lou went through this so we can talk. I love you. Everything is going to be okay." I reassured her quietly. Her head raised up and looked at me with red eyes. My heart broke at the sight.

"I love you too. So does Nova/Joshua." She exclaimed at the names. This baby was going to be name Finnegan or Sasha. I prayed that'd it'd be a girl. I really wanted a girl.

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