Leaving You

Zayn's P.O.V

Tears blurred my vision as I drove to the airport. I just got done singing goodbye to the love of my life. I guess apart of me always knew that there was something between Niall and Leah. If it weren't for me Niall would've had Leah three years ago. It was just hard to know that the girl I loved, loved someone else.

When around Niall I would act like nothing ever happened. He's my best friend and I want them to be happy. All I could think about was seeing my little girl. I loved Sasha so much and now she was probably going to call him daddy. It hurt so much, but I was going to be there for her. She is my daughter.

The road seemed so full of life, but I felt empty. Everything was just taken away from me in the blink of an eye. However it was my fault. I cheated on Leah, I lied, I called her names, and I hurt her. Memories of our early relationship came to me.

Our first kiss, our first time, meeting each others parents, proposing, having our daughter, and saying goodbye to her. I promised her that I would protect her from the fans and most times I couldn't. I promised that I would never lie and I did so many times. However, I promised that I would love her forever and that I could keep. She might have slipped from my fingers, but never from my memory. Every moment of our relationship would be remembered until the day that I die.

I will never be able to explain how sorry I am for putting her through everything. She never wanted to fall in love, but she did. My heart aches for her touch constantly. I knew I would end up going all Taylor Swift and write songs about my broken heart eventually. And I'm okay with that. It's going to take a lot to get over her, maybe I will never. Maybe she'll haunt me until I take my last breath.

All I can say as I pull my bags out from my car is that I'm sorry. As much as I say it, I meant it every time. Leah put her faith in me and I threw it back in her face. Nothing in me could ever excuse cheating on her or putting her in the hospital. I guess I couldn't handle some one so perfect. But after everything happened I still love your mother just as much as the day I met her, even more. I might not be there, but I'm in your heart. I know that Niall can take it from here.

-Z

I sealed the letter with tears as I boarded my plane. My right hand scribbled On Your 18th Birthday Sasha. The address was filled out already. Before it was sealed for good I slipped a drawing inside. It was a picture of Sasha inside Leah's stomach. My drawing sent me over the edge. Tears flew down viciously as I rolled my luggage to my terminal. Next to the door was a post box. The letter hit the bottom of the barrel with a thud.

I wanted Sasha to read the letter when she was old enough. Until now I would go on the world tour. Eventually I would move on and until then I would sing with my five best friends.

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