Leaving You

Zayn's P.O.V

The press conference was suppose to be about Niall's recovery, instead it was an attack to me. I cheated on Leah for 8 months without her knowing. She found my phone and saw the messages.

@RealZaynMalik 

I'm not going to say I didn't because I did.

My tweet went out to the angry fans all over the world. Also to people following the incident like reporters and disgusted people. They were judging before the knew the facts. I was heavily drunk and alone when Macy took me to her house.

@RealZaynMalik 

I made a mistake just like normal people. My life is looked at through a microscope because I'm famous. Don't judge me.

@RealZaynMalik 

Please give Leah and I space at this time. Don't give her hate for my actions. I'm sorry for anyone I hurt or offended. Xx

My twitter rage was over. Between tweets I got curious. I typed in to find 'Zayn Malik cheating'. Photos of Leah and I popped up. Her sonogram photo and our holiday pictures came up. More tears fell. Us holding hands and kissing from all different points in our relationship had captions on them of hatful things against me. Next, pictures from today came up. Leah, Niall, and I leaving the hospital happy made me smile. She wasn't smiling at me though, it was Niall. I looked closer and saw them holding hands. A video showed Leah pulling him from a crowd. They held hands all the way to the car. Her smile was one I had never seen, and it wasn't for me.

My heart broke when pictures of moments ago came onto my phone. Eleanor and Dani were embracing a bowed Leah. Her face was shielded by her hands just like mine was. Different photos showed different angles of them. One caught a glimpse of her face. Her blue eyes were red and full of tears. It made me cry more. I was the reason for it.

Harry pulled up to my flat moments later. I closed my phone and wiped away tears. The boys all jumped out with me.

"No I've gotta do this alone." I said sadly. My eyes met with Niall's. I couldn't help but think of how she spent every day next to him and was photographed holding his hand. And that smile she gave him.

"Give us a ring lad." Niall said blank faced. He swallowed before getting back in the car. All the lads hugged me and said bye. Once they drove away I bolted to my flat. The door was shut, but I could hear soft voices. Calmly, I entered the empty apartment. My things were thrown to the floor as I proceeded to our room. I pressed my ear to the closed door. I picked up a soft cry and low reassuring voices. With a swallow I entered.

Dani was at the end of the bed with her hand on Leah's legs. Eleanor was sat on the ground looking into her face whispering. Dani and El looked up at me blankly. They would never look at me the same. I walked over to them with a falling tear. They both got up leaving her alone. Both of them walked out of the room without a peep. I climbed onto the bed right next to my fiancé. I expected to her to resist, but she didn't. Instead she flipped herself to face me. Her head went to my chest while my arms wrapped around her. She friend into my arms desperately, too much for words. I soothed her with my singing.

"Shut the door 

Turn the light off 

I wanna be with you 

I wanna feel your love  

I wanna lay beside you 

I cannot hide this even though I try 

Heart beats harder 

Time escapes me 

Trembling hands touch skin it makes this harder 

And the tears stream down my face 

If we could only have this life for one more day 

If we could only turn back time 

You know I'll be your life, your voice, your reason to be  

My love, my heart is beating for this moment in time  

I'll find the words to say, before you leave me today."

Leah fell asleep crying to my voice singing her favourite song.

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