Leaving You

Leah's P.O.V

The following day was when the boys were leaving for another three weeks. I wouldn't see him for almost a month and it scarred me. I gave myself to him and what if he met someone else ? I used to worry about this all the time with Zayn and it actually happened. He cheated on me for a year and I forgave him. That was a mistake. All he did was hurt me and I wanted to move on. And I was.

"Would you mind if Andrea stayed with me for a while ? I haven't seen her since Sasha was born." I asked Niall from the corner of his bed. He was packing while I watched.

"Of course. She's your best friend !" Niall zipped up his two suitcases and I filled with sadness. He was leaving for such an extensive amount of time. It scarred me.

"I'm going to miss you." I admitted getting up. He stopped with his things and looked at me. The space between us became no existent as I was pulled into him.

"I'm going to miss both of you. But after the three weeks I've got a whole week off." He smiled at me. I gave him a weak smile and he pulled me in for a hug. "Just don't stay inside all the time. Go out and have fun." I nodded.

"I've gotta go now."

"I know." With that his lips fully kissed on mine bring back memories of yesterday. I still couldn't believe what happened hours ago. He wrapped himself around me and I felt so dirty. Every interaction was disgusting of me and I kept reminding myself. When he pulled away he was smiling and I wasn't.

"I love you." He said.

"I love you too." I wobbled. Niall leaned into the play pen that was know set up in "our" room. Sasha came out in his arms.

"Bye Sash. I'll see you and mummy soon." He brought her close and kissed her forehead. I scrunched my face. She was set soundly back down and he faced me.

"Are you riding with Zayn ?" I asked as he came back to me.

"No I'm driving meself." It became awkward suddenly. I smiled and took his hand. Guidingly, I walked him and his bags to the front door.

"We can call and video chat all the time. I will do whatever." I spoke honestly. He kissed my cheek before hugging me.

"I'll call as soon as we land in Spain." I nodded happily, something I had been doing often. Niall picked up his bags and smiled one last time. My eyes watched as he disappeared down the hall. I soaked in the reality of being alone until Andrea got here. The door shut and I sighed. So much has happened and I needed personal time. Suddenly there was a knock at the door. I smiled thinking it was Niall coming for another kiss. Air whipped across my face as I threw the door open. I didn't see a blonde head though.

"Can we talk ?" Zayn asked with a sad face. I slammed the door in his face and locked it. "Babe please. I messed up."

"Why don't you talk to the strippers ? Or to that slut you cheated on me with ?" I yelled at the black door. My back slid down the barrier. It was quiet on the other end until his voice spoke a bit later.

"I can still remember like yesterday. 

We were so in love in a special way. And knowing that your love will make me feel oh so right. But now I feel so lost, don't know what to do. Each and everyday I think of you. Holdin back the tears. I'm trying with all my might."

The unfamiliar lyrics ran through my mind. A tear fell down from my right eye. I could hear Zayn struggling not to.

"Because you've gone and left me standing here all alone. And I know I've got to face tomorrow on my own. But baby before I let you go I want to say I love you. I hope you're listening cuz it's true baby. You'll be forever in my heart. And I know that no one else will do. Yeah, so before I left you go I wanna say I love you. I wish that it could be just like before. I know I could've given you so much more. Even though you know I've given you all my love. I miss your smile, I miss your kiss. Each and everyday I reminisce. Cuz baby it's you that I'm always dreaming of. Because you've gone and left me standing all alone. And I know I've got to face tomorrow on my own. But baby before I left you go I want to say I love you."

Tears were falling down my cheeks at full speed now. The lyrics went processed at every inch. Zayn was singing goodbye. I heard him sniffle before more words spoke.

"Goodbye Leah." Foot steps indicated that he left. My heart was racing and tears flooded my eyes. I lost the best thing that ever happened to me. Quickly I shot up from the floor and threw open the door. He was gone, but in his place was a bouquet of white roses. They were my favourite. A little note was attached to the bunch.

I could never give it to anyone else  

-Z

My hand covered my mouth as I saw my engagement ring.

****DISCLAIMER THE SONG ABOVE IS BEFORE I LET YOU GO BY FREESTYLE. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.

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