HHYL Shortfics

What If

#When Lu Cang is being alone and drown in his own melancholy thoughts.

What If.....

Sitting in the pavilion, Lu Cang grudgingly grumbled because of his aching waist. Last night Jing was in his beastly mode and thoroughly loved his body countless times.

'If this happens every night, I wonder if I could live to enjoy my retirement.'

Upon his own random words, a sudden unpleasant feeling raised from the pit of his stomach.

What if I truly die before Jing? Will he grieve over my death?

Lu Cang hung his head in low spirit. Frowning to himself while pondering the possibility.

I will surely grieve if Jing died before me. I would for sure. Absolutely.

But will he?

A tender smile graced the corners of his lips.

He will. He must! If not, I will haunt him forever --- he unconsciously let out a soft laughter upon this silly thought.

What if we don't even have the chance to see each other dying? Will it be better?

The smile disappeared again from his face. His whole face was darkened by this gloomy sentiment.

No... If possible, I want us to grow old together. Holding hands till the very last of our breath.

It would be so painful if I couldn't grow old together with him.I won't mind his waning appearance. He is still Jing after all...

What if Jing dislikes my waning appearance? Will he banish me? Will he ask me to leave?

This was the worst possibility that had been haunting Lu Cang from the beginning of their relationship. Whenever this kind of question floated from the back of his mind, he was unable to suppress the throbbing ache in his heart.

Lu Cang watched the wavering reflection on the water's surface, as if he could see the uncertainty of his own miserable future.

Ahhh... It is not the banishment that caused this throbbing. I would be fine if he really asked me to leave...

What hurt me the most is the thought that I won't be able to grow old together with him.

That I won't be able to see his smile anymore...

That I won't be able to accompany him through the good or bad...

That I will miss him every second of my life...

Closing his eyes to prevent the suddenly forming tears from rolling down, Lu Cang bitterly smiled.

Every time when he was alone, the melancholy sentiment would flood his mind, his heart would anxiously throb.

By the side, Jing had been watching every single change of Lu Cang's expression since the moment he arrived. He was in his Majestic Emperor's robe since he rushed to the Lotus Pavilion right after the morning court.

Jing was worried. Last night, he couldn't control his desire and ended up ravishing Lu Cang and literally drained him. His conscience led him to dismiss the court early as he needed to check on his lover's condition.

"What's wrong?"

Even though the clever Xuan Yuan Jing could clearly read what had been going through in Lu Cang's mind by his expressions, he still couldn't restrain himself in teasing the silly ex-bandit.