Years

Heartache's & Hospitals

Madelyn

I was throwing clothes into my bag and my mom was leaning against the door. "What did Hannah say?" my mom whispered. I wanted to make sure I had everything I would need. I didn't plan on coming back here for a few weeks and I also had decided to leave Belle here with my mom for now.

"She uh, she said that he got into a bad accident. She didn't give me the details but she wants me to get down there. I want to be down there." I told her.

"I know and I'm sure he wants you there too." Tears pricked my eyes and my vision blurred with tears and I struggled to pack my bag. Four years, I lost four years with him because of some lie. I sat down on my bed after my knees buckled and my mom rushed over. "He'll be alright baby." I stayed silent. My chest was aching and I felt nauseous. I couldn't breathe. "I'm going to call Bevin; I think she needs to be with you during this since I can't leave right now."

I nodded my head and she patted my leg and got off my bed. I finished packing my things slowly but surely. There were so many thoughts running through my bed. I tried hard to ignore the pain in my heart but it intensified with every waking moment, with every breath and every time a tear rolled down my cheeks.

I picked up my bag and walked down to the living room. I was dressed in a pair of black leggings, a blue plaid long-sleeved shirt and a blue knit open cardigan from Forever21. Even though was warm here by the time I got into Minnesota it would be below freezing. I set my bags down by the front door and walked into the kitchen where my mom was hanging up the phone.

"I just got off the phone with Bevin, she is taking the first flight out and she will meet in Chicago before you get on the next plane." I nodded and saw Belle walking in the kitchen. Her bell was jingling and I smiled. I picked her up and hugged her against my chest.

"I think I want to take her with me actually," I said to my mom and she nodded.

"I think that's a good idea. Are you ready to go?" she asked and I nodded. "Okay, let's go."

We got in the car and started the short drive to the airport. It was almost 4 in the morning and my flight departed at 4:30. It was the earliest one and it made a few stops along the way so the total flight was maybe four hours, give or take a few hours.

My mom parked the car and we got out, I grabbed a few bags and my mom grabbed the last one. I didn't have any clothes in Minnesota so I had to take along all the old clothes that my mom had. We walked through the airport and went through all the security checks before we sat down in the chairs by the gate.

"I'm going to get a coffee do you want one?" my mom asked and I nodded. She got up from the chair and walked over to the small Starbucks that was direct across from us.

My mind was wondering to different scenarios. I couldn't sleep last night without seeing Justin in a hospital bed. It always ended the same way; with me crying while doctors dragged me out of the room. The last thing I heard was the echoing of a flat line. I've tried so hard to shake these thoughts from my head but they kept playing back like a home movie. I saw it over and over again until I thought I was going mad.

I didn't see my mom come back until she shook me and the thoughts disappeared. She handed me a warm beverage which was the drink I always got, a white chocolate mocha, and I drank it slowly. The warm coffee felt good going down my throat. It was warm and even though we were in Florida and it was hot, I was cold.

"Gate B to Minneapolis is now boarding." I heard over the intercom and I stood up with my things. In a few hours, I will see the love of my life and that scares me. I don't know the condition he's in and I was afraid.