Secrets (Sequel to Vampire? TVD FanFic)

Part Thirty-Three

A few hours later, I sighed happily as Stefan and I walked into the Salvatore Boarding House: Home. Stefan was holding my hand as I nervously followed him into the lounge, where we could hear Damon. What was he going to say? Or think? Would he hate me? Would he be happy or angry to see me?

"Brother," He said without turning around.

"Damon," Stefan said in the same tone. Was there something going on between them?

"Becs?" I heard Elena say as she walked into the room. Of course. She would be the reason that Damon and Stefan are at odds, it's like Katherine all over again. Do these doppelgängers ever give the Salvatore brothers a break?

"Right, she's a vampire now, forgot about that," I muttered more to myself than anyone else, but apparently Elena was touchy on that subject as I realised when her face turned into a glare.

"Becs, what are you doing here?" Damon asked quietly, walking towards me.

I simply smiled at him nervously and watched his forehead crease into a frown. "Your humanity..."

I lifted my hand and gently smoothed out the crease between his eyebrows, "Don't frown, that's Stefan's job," I grinned at him as overwhelming happiness hit me.

"Becs you're crying," Damon said, lifting his hand to my cheek and gently wiping away the tears.

"I'm just so happy," I laughed and wiped the tears away myself. Without a moments hesitation Damon wrapped his arms around me and pulled me into a tight hug.

"And how do we know she's telling the truth and isn't just acting? She could be pretending her humanity is on?" Elena said in an irritated turn. Was she jealous that I was getting both the Salvatore's attention and she wasn't for once in her life?

"Elena," Stefan frowned, looking extremely annoyed at the accusation. False accusation, might I add.

"What, Stefan? I'm supposed to believe that she just happens to turn her humanity back on after everything she has done?" Elena argued.

I felt like I had been punched in the stomach. Faces of the people I had murdered flashed through my head. All those innocent people. And their innocent families.

"Becs," Damon said slowly, his voice laced with concern.

"Elena, I think it's best if you leave," Stefan said before turning to face me. He took hold of my shoulders and forced me to look at him. All I could think of was how much of a monster I was. I was a murderer and I had loved it. "Say it out loud. Come on, Becs, talk to me. Say it out loud, like you did to Tyler."

"Tyler?" Damon frowned, "Tyler Lockwood?"

"Panic, hate, fear, horror, guilt, so much guilt. What have I done Stefan? I killed so many people. I'm a monster," I cried, my knees shaking so much that I almost dropped to the floor and would have if Damon hadn't caught me.

"Hey, hey," Damon said in my ear, shifting me in his arms so I was looking at him instead of Stefan. Stefan gave Damon a look, who returned it with a nod before Stefan left the room. "Listen to me Becs, you are not a monster. You are incredible, lovely, caring and beautiful inside and out, so don't beat yourself up about this. You are not the only vampire to turn their humanity off and go off the rails, you've seen Stefan in his Ripper state so you know you're not the only one to do this. It happened and now you're making up for it, but you'll get through it and Stefan and I will be here for you every step of the way. We will never give up on you. You're not a monster, Becs. You're the complete opposite."

"Damon," I cried and held him closer to me, wanting to feel his warmth and hear his heart beat. He wrapped his arms tightly around me, kissing the top of my head in silence as I slowly began to calm down. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." I whispered after a few minutes of us sitting on the floor together.