Your Lie in April (fanfic)

Episode 10: Which event?

>>time skip>>

~Kaori's POV~

P.E. class.. basketball.

i'm not really into sports. since i'm always confined in a hospital and besides, i'm not good at it.

i can see Watari and Tsubaki-chan playing and having fun. i'm in the bleachers drinking water in a bottle and i see Kousei reading musical scores. he sees me then walks towards me then sits right beside me.

"reviewing for something?" i asked.

he looked at me for a minute, flustered.

"u-umm yeah." he said as he arranged his eyeglasses properly.

"what for?"

"a contest." still looking at his papers.

"REALLY!?" i squealed. i missed being with him during his practice days! well i am always bossy around him. but that's why he gets his goals right?

i'm really excited by the thought that he still plays. he still goes to contests even. it just makes me so proud.. just like when he took me at a contest when i was still Shiori.

"well you're up about it Shiori." yeah right.. i'm still Shiori.

"umm.. i guess..." Think Kaori, Think!

"umm.. i was touched by your performance last time so ahh... yeah. i really would like to see you play again." nice one. actually, it is true.

he reached me with his music. like his emotions reached me.

"can i.. uh.. go with you?" i asked. now i'm flustered.

"w-where?" well he's shocked. i rolled my eyes.

"to the contest dummy." i said eyebrows furrowed.

Kaori! Shiori yelled at me. she's inside my head now. You're being you again!

"Shiori?" his head cocked to one side with his eyeglasses uneven again.

"s-sorry. i got carried away." i hesitantly looked at him but still looking at my lap closing my two palms on it.

"s'okay. sure. you can come with me. Tsubaki's also coming, as well as Watari too." oh.

"when's the day?"

"July 4, in the evening. i'm in the Preliminaries round." July 4? b-but that's my..

"Kaori's Birthday." O///O

"who?" i asked. i don't know about her right?

"she's the girl i told you when we were caught in the classroom by Tsubaki." oh. that. then it hit me. the scene with him kissing Tsubaki on the cheek. i know it's only on the cheek but.. but! ugh. =_=

"then, which event are you going to attend to?" i asked.

"dunno. it depends on which." still looking at the scores. depends?

"well.. i got to go. i need to practice." he said as he stood up and walked away from me.

"hey!" i yelled at him. "wait up!" i said. i ran towards him down the bleachers.

"music room right? let's go." as i said those words, i took his hand and walked outside the gym. Tsubaki-chan didn't notice that. well, i'm just going to help him practice anyway.

then when we reached the room, he just stared at me.

"what?" i asked. is there something wrong with my face?

"why did you come with me here?"

"i'll help you practice." i said. okay.. here we go. back like we used to. but of course, i won't reveal who i am. he won't notice and i'll make it work.

"okay then! sit." i dragged him into the stool and made him sit. i took the sheets of paper he was looking at.

"Nocturne" Composed by: Claude Debussy.

i scanned the notes. the music seemed so soft, sad but also very pleasant to hear.

i placed the music sheets on the piano and faced Kousei.

"play." he just looked at me. again.

"what??" okay.. what's wrong now?

"why are you doing this to me?" he said, his voice trembling.

"you're not even her. yet you do this to me and i feel it coming back again. all of it." he continued.

"then, would you rather not have me to be here with you?" i asked. i'm obvious, am i? *sigh

"well if you don't want me, i'll be goin-" he stopped me.

"NO! i mean, n-no. stay. please." he said looking back at the piano keys then he closed his eyes desperate to hear my answer.

"okay." then i saw him look relieved. we practiced for hours until it was time for me to go.

6:00 PM

"i gotta go. maybe mom's looking for me. what about you?" then i just remembered.

"wait a minu- what about Tsubaki-chan!? i remembered the last time we've seen her was at the gym with.." he looked at me then smiled.

"she's with Watari. they headed home early. i can stay. dad's not coming home until next month."

i can stay. with him.. just for a while.

well, here goes nothing. "do you like her?" i quickly looked at the window as he looked at me. i didn't dare to look back at him. i guess my face looks flushed and at the same time, i can't hide the sadness i'm feeling right now.

"of course i do." tears start to creep into my eyes. don't drop!

did he forgot about me now? well, it's been two years then since my 'death'.

"but i don't love her." he looked at me, my eyes moist. tears didn't continue to drop. i'm too shocked.

"of course i like her, because if i didn't i wouldn't be friends with her. i love her.. as a friend. She's my bestfriend" he said. looking at me, his face serious.

"and that because she stood beside me when i felt lonely.. alone.. sad.. without you-" shocked, he put his hands over his mouth. eyes wide.

"m-me?" was it me?

"i'm s-sorry. you just look like her. a lot."

"okay? so.. this girl you like, she's the one we're visiting tomorrow?"

he nodded. "Kaori." he said my name which sends shivers down my spine.

"a-and you're okay with it? i mean, have you moved on?"

"no."

"then why Tsubaki-chan?" i asked. a tear drop threatened to drop down my face.

"i wanted to give her a chance. maybe i could fall for her-"

"but you didn't!" i said. tears dropped and there's no more stopping them.

"Shiori.." no.. that's not my name. that's not me. i'm not Shiori!

"Shiori?"

"stop. don't say that name." i said. "continue practicing. i'm leaving now."

"w-wait." he said. he stood up from the stool and tried to stop me.

"practice or else." i said all gloomy and the threat in my voice just makes him tremble and it makes me smile a little. i looked at the melodica at the corner of the room, picked it and looked at him again with my 'evil like' eyes. bwahaha!

"okay! sheesh. i'll play." then he returns to the stool and faced the piano. and once again, played the melodious song he picked.

just before i was about to walk out the door he said,

"don't cry anymore. i won't leave you. never again will i ever leave you."

he.. what?