Your Lie in April (fanfic)

Episode 20: The Finals

~Kaori's POV~

i ran to the hospital.

i was desperate to go that i can't wait for a taxi or something. so i ran. i bumped into a lot of people, almost tripped a zillion times and i felt so cold. it's going to be winter here since its september.

i rushed in the hospital reminding what number on the door should i be opening.

when i was at the door, i didn't want to see him, but i want to.

this crazy thing that happened.. why did he got into an accident!?

i don't want to see him! but i want to know if he's okay. but what if he's not- NO! he's okay... isn't he?

oh please! i'm trembling here outside his room. maybe he's waiting for me inside. is this some kind of payback when i was known dead by then? i'm scared. i'm scared!

"i can't.." i mumbled through my lips that quivers. i can feel my eyes getting hotter and full of tears ready to fall down my cheeks.

as i try to reach out for the doorknob, my hand hesitates. then the door opened.

"Kaori?" Watari?

"oh, you went to see Kousei.. well.." he's moving aside for me to see Kousei. i'm scared!

i stopped Watari. i just don't know if i'd want to see him or.. ugh. my heart, it aches so much.

"w-what?" Watari asked me.

i can hear it again, that beeping sound, hospital air, i can see equipments too. the pain of yesterday still lingers inside me. i'm scared.. help me! Kousei.

"Kaori?" i hear him.

my world stops. he speaks.

Watari smiled and stepped aside for me to see him clearly.

Kousei, wrapped with bruises, scrapes on his cheek and elbow. a bandage around his arm held up by a sling and a patch of gauge just above his eyebrow, you can still see the blood there. my heart beat's getting faster, my face and eyes getting hotter, tears welling up and about to fall.

"okay... welp, i'll leave you two alone. i need to go and check up on Tsubaki. if anything goes wrong just call for a nurse okay?" then Watari tapped my shoulder and left us two alone. me? speechless.

"He-hey.." Kousei said.

i glared at him, walked towards him and punched him and knocked him on the head.

(a/n: that kind of punch in the anime wherein we turn chibi and blood drizzling over his head.)

"wh-what was that for!?"

"STUPID!" i shouted at him as i continued punching him and as my punches get slower.. tears start to fall down my face.

he held my wrist stopping me from hitting him. i bowed my head before he catches me crying. i tried to sound like normal but my sobs gets in my way of speaking clearly.

"why..?" i murmured.

"Kaori.."

"i was so *hic* scared *hic*." i wanted to wipe my tears but his hands are still holding my wrists and for some reason, i felt powerless.

"i thought.. i was gonna lose you!" i cried my heart out.

"what, you wanted payback? is that it!?" i shouted.

"no! i didn't intend to get hurt like this by some car. and i won't leave you. you won't lose me, Kaori!" he held my arms and shook me. i can see tears welling up his eyes. "i would never leave you." he continued and then, he hugged me.