Your Lie in April (fanfic)

Episode 1: Crashing Memories.

~Kaori's P.O.V.~

tut* tut* tut*

these are the sounds that's here in a room (that isn't mine and) where i am.

i woke up crying. i... wait.

wait a minute.

I WOKE UP!?

b-but i thought it was all over. i mean, all i remember is.... wait. i fought my way hard to fight my illness. and i succeeded.

so that means.. i'm okay now. My thoughts and feelings became more at ease.

i dreamt about Kousei and me playing Kreisler's "Lover's Sorrow" and i had this feeling that i would leave him. it hurt me seeing his eyes shocked when he looked at me..

he was tearing up too.

but i know i can't. if i go to him, i know i won't be able to leave him. and that's not what it's supposed to be.

but now.... i can go back to him.

still lying here in this room with hospital equipment and thinking all of these to myself. hmm, maybe i just made a review about what happened before all of this.

wait, i can call him! right now.

as i try to get up my bed i couldn't see my stuff. even my phone. too bad, i wanted to call Kousei though. but maybe, well it is him, he'll freak out.

"Kaori!" mom saw me and came crying towards me with my dad beside her.

"mom, dad!" i said with a huge grin. seeing them alright made me smile.

"i thought i was a goner. actually the last time i saw you two cried, is when you were in the lobby. i really thought that my time was limited, i thought that the surgery i had will be the last one i'll see." i said continuously. Mom got shocked when she heard that i both saw them hiding from me.

"i was crying because you're dad and i got into a fight just because of me being jealous and dad tried to comfort me. i admitted that i was wrong to accuse your father like that so the thing that you saw, wasn't actually about you." mom explained while dad nodded.

"ohhh.. and ouch." the thought of them not crying about me and just for their petty fight made me feel better.

"but of course, when you said you wanted to take the surgery, i got scared. i didn't want you to be taken from us and that it'll be the last time i'll see you like that. but you succeeded on your operation that's why i'm super happy as well as your father. i'm so proud of you sweety." mom continued then hugged me and i hugged her as well.

"anyway, i put away your things to your room at home. do you want anything? i'll bring them for you." mom still worries.

"it's alri- on second thought, i'd like to have my phone please." and.. oh God, i think i'm blushing. Not right now face! argh.

"ok then, i'll go get it." dad said. waving goodbye and gave me a one last smile before he left.

"so," i shifted my attention to mom. "has this guy that you say 'great at playing the piano' come here to visit?" mom continued.

"umm, yeah. days before, he went to see me." i tried hard not to smile. gah! why does when remembering that idiot makes me so happy i can't help but smile?! that's it. when he comes, i'm gonna give him my infamous punch.

"was the name of the guy Kousei-kun?" mom asked. yep, i knew it. she was trying hard not to laugh, 'cause maybe, i'm blushing like a tomato right now.

"u-un." i nodded.

memories came crashing through me.

the part where i held his hands, the part where i dragged him with me to be my accompanist, the part where we saw shooting stars, the part where i always pester him and called him on the phone to just hear his voice (even though he's so annoyed), the part where we went to this hospital's rooftop and to where i said to him to never leave me behind.

i'm so selfish.

i said to him to not leave me behind yet, i'm the one who did it.

i really want to go back to him right now.

then suddenly a sudden pain jolted up through my head and i cried out in pain.

"AAAAAHHHHH!" i was crying and mom was in panic calling out for a nurse to help.

i didn't see anything else but the thought of Kousei saying my name.

then everything.. faded to black.