He's Mean

Chapter 18 - Still a stranger

>>Caisley's Car at the Multimedia<<

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I was stunned upon realizing that he already left me standing here dumbfounded. And I'm also dissapointed to myself towards my action and when I heard his last word after he cut the kiss make me close my fist.

"I told you not to come near him."

Naramdaman ko na lang ang paghila ng isang kamay sa kamay ko but I just can't digest everything. I haven't even managed to see the one who just grabbed me. I am really dumb! Fuck!

"Caisley... please."

Bumalik lang ako sa ulirat ko nang bigla kaming tumigil sa paglalakad at tumingin sa aking mga mata ang lalaking nasa harapan ko. That's when my senses came back.

"What now, Justine?"

Yeah, obviously it's him. I already dump him but he's still here for me. I really can't get him. He's so tough. But the real question is, do I really deserve his toughness to be my friend? Do I deserve to be his friend? Or do I really deserve to have a friend?

"Caisley, I just want you to know that I'm just here. Y-you don't need him."

Tila nainsulto pa ako sa sinabi niya and closed my eyes to prevent myself from sayin' uncontrollable words again.

"I don't need him? Well, yes. I definitely don't need him. But Justine! Can't you see the situation?! I kept on staying away from him but he would just appear from nowhere then dissapear in an instant. Can't you see that I'm also trying to push him away?! But the hell is with him! He's fuckin' annoying! He's fuckin' mean to show me things I don't want to see then he keeps on putting puzzled things in my head! And I'm damn curious to know all the answer that he kept on putting inside my head! I'm puzzled! I'm fuckin' lost! Now did you already get it, Justine?!"

But I'm not damn successful. I just spilled my thoughts to a man who just came in my life and I haven't even know his story, his life, the real him, his place. All I know is his name alone. I'm not even sure if that's his real name. Yes. He's still a stranger for me.

"You know what, Caisley? You don't need him to know the answer to you unanswerable questions. You don't even have to force yourself just to know the answers. The answers will just come to you itself if you really have to know it. Just. Just please don't force yourself."

I sigh then grabbed my hands from him.

"Do you really care for me just because I'm your friend?"

A thought just popped inside my head.

His eyes widened as if he didn't expected me to say that.

"Of course. W-what do you mean?"

Right. I know there's something more. I knew it by his tone when saying those words. I just managed to turn my back at him and directed to our first subject but he just grabbed my arm. But before he could utter a word, the bell just rang so he just free me then I started to walk.

"Good day class. I am Mr. Jones Stanburj, the keeper of Technology department. I guess you don't know me yet for I haven't seen your faces lost in my department. I guess you're really that smart enough."

Yeah, he is the one whom praised me when I retrieved information from one of his computers. He look at us one by one for we are only five students here.

"But oh, your face is familiar. Did you already went to Technology Department?"

Inayos niya muna ang suot niyang eyeglass and looked at me intently.