He's Mean

Chapter 23 - Can't help it

My mind is completely blank. He's still hugging me and it makes me insane. For the first time in my whole life, I came to like this kind of insanity.

Sa wakas ay nakabuo na rin ako ng sasabihin ko. I finally had the courage to speak at niluwagan niya na rin ang pagkakayakap sakin.

"Why are you doing this? It's so confusing. I've been confused all this time and it's the first time this happened. All my life, I was so sure for everything. All my life, I thought I knew everything. It's always like that until you came. Now, I don't know anything. You make me feel insane. You do things to me and then left. I'm a quiet person and people call me cold, but I became different in front of you. I just can't help but show you my weaknesses. It's like you're molding me again. I hate it. You're so mean. And now I'm crying in front of you. It's so stupid."

Again, for the first time, I saw his surprised face. I don't know why but I'm overwhelmed to see this new kind of expression of him. He's looking directly at me and he seems to say something but he couldn't.

He cupped my face. Then he kissed my eyes kaya mariin akong napapikit.

"Don't show that face in front of anyone. You look so cunning. You make it hard for me to hold back"

He intertwined our hands then he pulled me closer to him and kissed me. His kisses brings be insanity.

"I like you, Kezhekiah. That's why." He said while leaning his head on mine.

He smiled then he flicked his finger on my forehead again.

He left. And I can't think a single thing. My heartbeat is really troublesome. Damn it.

***

Nandito ako ngayon sa sala at siubukang manuod ng T.V. Kung wala akong gagawin, I think I'll burst out. Gulong-gulo ang isip ko kaya hindi ko pa rin magawang makapag-concentrate sa pinanunuod ko. I don't usually watch television so I don't think it'll work. Somehow, ayoko pa munang makita si Sean. I will just feel troubled. I know, it's not like me.

But it can't be helped. Since we're the only ones inside this house and I can't find my way to leave.

And as expected, he has shown up. Umupo siya sa sofa katabi ko.

"There are lots of chairs and I sat here first." I said without looking at him.

"This is MY sofa so I don't think you can make the owner leave his property."

Hindi na ako sumagot pa. He'll surely have his reasons.

Tumayo na ako at pumunta sa kusina. Kumuha ako ng muffins na ini-bake ko kanina. I usually eat sweets when I don't feel good. Ayoko nang bumalik sa sala dahil makikita ko nanaman ulit siya.

I forgot that I put some chocolate syrup inside so it scattered on my face.

Naghanap ako ng tissue at may nakita ako sa cabinet sa itaas ng lababo. I tiptoed to reach it. But before I could, someone grabbed my hand so I lost my balance. But he did not let me fall. He blocks my shoulder to stop me from falling.

"Ano bang ginagawa mo? Bumalik ka na nga lang sa-"

He just licked my face where the chocolate scattered. My eyes widened and my breathing stopped for a second.

He really makes me do things I thought I'd never do. And my expressions were shown to him so freely.

Ibinaba niya ang kamay kong hawak niya.