Love Shouldn't Cause Pain?

Unlovable?

♦ Harley's P.o.V ♦

I felt safe with Ivy, she wouldn't... I don't think she would hurt me. I didn't think Mr J would do... That to me but he did. No matter how much I screamed and cried, nothing stopped him. I don't even want to think about what he did to me... To my body.

I haven't looked at myself until I was safe in the bathroom. My eyes welled up just looking at what had become of me. How did Ivy look at me, look at all the blood? I was so upset I turned the shower on and jumped in instantly. The water burned my skin but I barely felt it with the pain already radiating from every inch of my body.

I felt the blood mixed with water and tears go down the drain as I stared at myself in the mirror. Every time one of my cuts was clean a new one opened up again to spill out blood but I wasn't focused on that. I was scrubbing furiously at one part in my body in particular. It wasn't getting cleaner. It made me think my whole body was dirt. I was filthy. No one will ever love me, look at me I'm trash. I should just stay here and wait till I bleed out. No one would miss me... Why go on. I was tainted, no one wants me. Especially not my Puddin.

There was a slight knock on the door and fear welled up inside me... What If he has come to take me back. No I couldn't go back... Not yet I haven't even... healed yet, I covered myself as good as I could with my bruised hands and backed up into the corner.

"Harl... Y- you've been in there for a while... You okay in there?" Red sounded hurt. If I died she wouldn't rest until Mr J died, he would kill Red in the blink of an eye, I couldn't be the reason my best friend died. It's decided then, I will stay alive for Red. For her own good.

"I'm coming out now.... Red there's no towel." I tried to sound like my normal bubbly self but I couldn't even convince myself with the show I just put on. Normally it wouldn't matter that a didn't have a towel I knew Red wouldn't look, but I couldn't let her see me like this. She would probably throw me out same as Puddin.

🌱 Ivy's P.o.V 🌱

Why was she so afraid of me? She knows I wouldn't do anything to make her uncomfortable, I have hidden my feelings from her just in case. I would rather love her from afar then scare her away and onto the cold unforgiving streets of Gotham, where she would eventually go back to that creep and the whole thing would just repeat until she died.

"Harley. I'm - I'm not gonna hurt you." My eyes filled with tears once again, my heart sank. Why did I have to tell her that, I thought she trusted me. "Open the door... I won't come in. Just let me put your clothes on the side Harl... Please."

My heart dropped as the door opened ever so slightly. She didn't trust me, I told her I wouldn't hurt her but she didn't trust me. As a singular tear rolled down my face and I summoned one of my babies and gave them Harley's clothes. My baby barely fit through the gap, I heard her jump as she saw the long thin vine slip through that tight gap holding onto her clothes. As my baby retreated I slowly slid down the wall and tried to listen out for any movement on the other side. I heard her whimper and wince as she manoeuvred her clothes as best she could, trying so hard to avoid her injuries. That was impossible her whole body was covered.

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