Love Shouldn't Cause Pain?

The Truth.

♦ Harley's p.o.v ♦

Red didn't say a word. What was she thinking?! She just starred at me, she's probably disgusted. I don't blame her, more tears poured down my face but this time Red made no attempt to wipe them away. Red still had her hands on my jaw line, softly cupping my face. I tried to make it stop, the tears, the pain, the heartache and the thought's. I clenched my jaw and slammed my eyes shut... The thought's took over.

Did I really think she could love me back, I'm such an idiot. I can't believe I said that, I must of sounded so insensitive I said I loved her and when she said it back I made my love sound more important. I bet she took that in the wrong way. Did I think that because she held my hand it meant she didn't hate me anymore. Did I really think all was forgiven?!? I'm so dam stupid. I love my best friend, my best friend that is a girl. Sure she is the most beautiful girl I have ever seen, but she's my friend.

I think Red snapped out of it, she started stroking over the tensed muscle in my jaw with her thumb. She didn't move her whole hand, just her thumb. She was so gentle, so soft. Maybe she didn't hate me. I released my jaw and Red's thumb ceased all movement.

"Harl, open your eyes." Her voice was sensual and husky as usual, gosh I love her voice. I love everything about Red, no stop! She's your best friend. You just lost your best friend and the first thing you think of is how hot she is. Gosh what I'm I going to do without her?

I cautiously opened my eyes, as soon as I did I was met with a familiar intoxicating sight, Red was stood in front of me in all her glory. I could only focus on her eyes, the wondrous emerald green sea that I had become lost in many times. We just stared at each other, no words were spoken. I felt worry start to build up in my throat, if I was going to say anything it had to be now before I locked my feelings up... I don't know how Red locked up her past for that many years, I couldn't even hide my new found love for a week. How does she live with that kind if weight on her shoulders, I bet there's still more to her story than she cared to mention, why is she so secretive? Well I'm never going to find out now, I just ruined everything. I cleared my throat which seemed to snap Red out of what ever she was in.

"I- I'm sorry Red... I - I didn't mean t-"

Before I could finish my sentence my mouth was covered. My eyes widened in realisation, Red?!? My sentence was stopped but not how I expect, if anything it was the opposite of what I thought. Red, she - she had her lips pushed up against mine. I don't even know how we got like this, one of her hands was still placed firmly on my jaw but her other arm found its way around my waist. Our body's were firmly pressed together. Red had her eyes shut so I shut mine and threw my arms around her waist. In this moment time froze, I never wanted it to end. Her lips were so soft, she was so gentle and she tasted like sugar. Wait she was kissing me, what did this mean... Did- did Red love me back?!? I hope so, if Red loved me I would never have to watch her leave me behind.

After a while Red pulled her lips of mine, she rested her forehead on mine as we panted. I could feel her breath on my face which turned my legs to jelly, thankfully Red was still holding my waist. I felt so safe, so wanted, so needed. Nothing could ruin that moment.

"Soo... You guys done yet?" Red let go of my face and my waist, she quickly got out of my hold.

Both of turned to stare at the witness. She had a smug smirk on her face, her chestnut eyes were gleaming.

"Selina! W-what do you mean... " I turned to see Red who looked like she was about to pass out, She was even paler than yesterday. Her eyes were filled with dread.

"I saw you. I saw everything" Kitty marched towards Red who tensed up when she got closer. Kitty finally lent over to Red's ear, whispered something and skipped away.

"Wait! Kitty, who else... Saw?" I started to worry, if Kitty was watching the whole time anyone else could of seen. If anyone saw Red would go crazy.

"I'm pretty sure Robin saw..." Kitty started to chuckle. Kitty might of been having a great time but I saw the look on Red's face. " I can't be certain because all we saw was a flash of red, green and yellow. Soon after that I found u two all lovey dovey."

Oh great, Red stormed out I tried to grab her hand before she left but she was to quick. I doubt Red will ever do that again, especially know we got caught. Red hates weakness, love... If that's what you can call it is most definitely weakness in Red's eyes. Did Red even feel the same way? Maybe it was just pity.

"Soooooo....Harley. You and Pam?" hearing Kitty say that made me even more confused and frustrated, I couldn't answer her because I didn't know the answer. Red loves her secrets, it's kinda sad...

"Erm... I don't really know how she feels. I - I told her I loved her. Like more than a friend and she froze. When she snapped out of it she kissed me. Now she's gone." What if she never explained her feelings to me? What if she loved me but didn't tell me? What if she hates me and this is a all fake friendship, sure I found out I'm having twins and really need all the friends I could get... But Red wouldn't lead me on like that right?!?

Thanks for reading hope you enjoyed. Feel free to leave a comment and a vote If u like and as always new part soon ~Jw💜