Love Shouldn't Cause Pain?

Because of me?

♦ Harley's p.o.v ♦

As I barged through the front door with Skylar wrapped up in my arms, I trailed mud into our home and the wet patches on the floor followed quickly. Selina was already inside so I pushed the door closed behind me. We all stood there shivering intensely. Skylar didn't seem to care that she was wet, I think I heard her purring softly in my arms. Kitty was the complete opposite, she was attempting to shake herself off which is what I thought Skylar would be doing.

"Do you not have heating...in this place Harley?!?" Kitty's teeth were chattering loudly, her once bright red lips were tinted blue.

"It's not m-m-my place Kitty." As I looked round I noticed Red wasn't here, Phoebe's not still curled up on the couch.

Just then Phoebe emerged from around the corner, holding a tray and two mugs on top followed by a small saucer. There was thin streams of steam coming from all three items on the tray.

"I saw the rain and though you guys could use some heat." Phoebe smiled warmly and lowered the tray. " Hot chocolate for Harley." I lowered Skylar and took the plain mug, with pop art BANG! On the bottom that Red bought me last Christmas when Joker threw me out... "For Selina we have a warm mug of milk .... I don't even know if you like milk I just guessed." Kitty nodded and took the mug in her shaking hands. "Finally Skylar." Phoebe lent down an sat a saucer of warm milk on the floor next to Skylar's black furry paws. By the time I finally held the cup to my mouth Kitty has finished.

"I'm gonna go get a bath Harley." Kitty walked over and kissed me on my cheek.

I started to sip the frothy chocolate goodness from my favourite mug as I paced over to Red's lab. As I placed my hand on the handle, I felt my hand being covered with heat. I looked down at the hand that had covered my own. I looked to my side to see Phoebe staring at me with dark shades I had never before seen in her eyes. Worry filled my body for the... I don't know how many times I have been worried over the last how ever many weeks. I could see that Phoebe was trying to think up an explanation that I could handle. Is something wrong with Red?! My heart rate quickened, if something happened to Red because of me...

"Harley. Ivy isn't here, she erm... She left. She said she was done with you, done with looking after you, done with the constant threat of The Joker. She kept ranting about how if he found us he would kill everyone here, everyone but you. He can't kill you. He can kill everyone who stands between you and himself but he can't kill the person he loves." Phoebe took her hand off mine and backed away.

I felt so numb. I didn't know what any part of my body was doing except from my heart, my heart was braking. No, my heart was shattering and I can feel nothing but pain. I just stood there, I have never felt so confused, so lost. Everything Phoebe said went against everything I was told, Joker loved me and Red didn't. As feeling grew through my body I felt warm trails of pain leave my eyes. I didn't know who to trust anymore. Red said as long as she was here Joker wouldn't get anywhere near me ... Red isn't here anymore. Through clouded vision I stumbled towards the kitchen counter, the counter I pinned Red to. I placed my mug on the counter and then let it happen. My body shut down. My legs collapsed underneath me leaving the rest of my body falling to the floor, I didn't try to catch myself I just left myself to fall to the floor. I didn't fight it as my vision was filled with black dots.

⏩ hours later? ⏩

My eyes were still closed, I felt warm arms cradling me... Red?!? I ripped my eyes open and turned around immediately, it took a while for my eyes to focus on the deep sleeping raven haired woman. My heart clenched as I remembered, she's gone.

I wiggled my way out of Kitty's hold; got to my feet and changed my clothes. After I had put on my thick red and black jumper I crept over to Selina and kissed her on the forehead, I quickly ran down the stairs and over to the front door. As I hung onto the handle I realised I couldn't leave just yet. I let go of the handle, held onto my baby bump and stumbled over to the cabinet which housed my colouring books inside. I reached in and sorted through one of my least favourite colouring books. I finally found a page I was never going to use and ripped it out, who would ever want to colour in a spider on it's web. I turned the piece of paper around and grabbed a blue crayon. As I put crayon to paper tears started falling from my eyes yet again. I didn't know what to write. I didn't want to end up hurting them to much but I also didn't want them to come after me...

After a long time of constructing my note I decided I couldn't waste anymore time, if I'm not gone by the time everyone wakes up I might never be able to leave. I held onto the handle yet again but this time I opened the door, I was met with a cold gust of air. I stepped outside to start my search.

Thanks for reading hope you enjoyed. I know I haven't updated in a while but I should be doing a double update today so stay tuned. Vote and comment if you feel like it ~ Jw