Love Shouldn't Cause Pain?

The desicion...

♦ Harley's p.o.v ♦

"... no telling what he could do..." What did Red mean? What did she think he would do? Everything Puddin did to me, he did it because I messed up but the baby... Wait... Babies mess up, that's how they learn. They mess up... All the time. Maybe my Puddin would let it slide because it's a baby and that's what they do. What if he doesn't... My eyes widened, I looked straight into Red's emerald eyes, her pupils were so tiny. Probably shock.

"Red..." she gave my hands a reassuring squeeze and waited. "my Puddin... my Mr J..." Red's grip loosened, she was pulling away. Think Harley think this could end badly both ways. I can stay with Red like i wanted but if Mr J ever found out he would kill us all, I don't want anyone to get hurt because of me especially not Red or the baby. On the other hand if I went back to my Puddin I would lose Red by default and like Red said there's no telling what he could do... Red was slipping away I had to do something to had to choose "He- he could find us Red... If- if he finds us he- he-"

"Harley, as long as I'm here he is not getting anywhere near you." Red's hands were firmly gripping mine once again, her grip is hard but her hands are so soft. Why did I have these feeling for Red, I - I don't think I had them before... Maybe I did and my love for Mr J overpowered it. What if Mr J already knows! No, If I didn't know it how could he.

"Red... I don't want to go back to him..." My eyes started to pour out tears once again, I'm genuinely surprised I still have tears to cry. Without warning Red moves her hands from mine, I was about to ask why she moved away but before I got the chance she pulled my into a warm embrace. It's been so long since Red has held me like this, I never wanted to move.

We just sat there in each others arms for a while, Red was gently swaying us from left to right. In that moment I forgot about everything all that mattered was that I was with Red and Red was with me.

"Harley?" Red moved one of her hand to my one of my ponytails and started to twist my golden locks. Why was she playing with my hair, my hair sucks compared to hers... Oh got it her hair is a mess, funny I didn't think it was possible for Red's hair to be a mess it's basically her favourite feature.

"Yeh?" I almost forgot Red wanted to talk, I was so caught up in my thoughts... I hope she doesn't ask me to move.

"Can we carry this on when I have cleaned myself up? I know you have seen my hair and Harley, you know how I feel about my hair." Why did I jinx it. I don't want to move, what if she just locks herself back in here after she is done. I can't do this alone... I just can't.

"Just one more minute? I like it when you play with my hair, you never usually play with my hair because your's is so much better." I look up at Red with my big blue puppy dog eyes and push out my bottom lip just a bit. I knew how to pull Red's strings, it was manipulative but it's not my fault she can't resist my cutene- maybe not... more like it's not my fault she can't resist a beaten pregnant woman who depends on her...

"One more minute then Harl, and just for you information I like playing with your hair you just never let me usually so I play with my own." Red smiled at me and carried on twisting my hair whist we just sat there.

Why was everything she did so seductive, she looks like a mess but I still can't resist her... Who am I kidding Red might look dirty but she's always going to be beautiful to everyone. I might as well enjoy this time with her, Red could be with anyone she wanted anytime she wanted because everyone has a secret crush on her, I bet Phoebe is attracted to her as well. If I was Red I would pick Phoebe over me any day, I mean it wouldn't even be a hard decision. Phoebe was so pretty and younger too, sure I'm only 22 and Red is 23 but Phoebe is 18, she looks younger than she is which also didn't help me out. I had no chance with Red... Why did I even get my hopes up and think that there could even be a possibility we could be together, even without Mr J trying to kill us Red was never going to find ME attractive.

"Harl... It's definitely been longer than a minute now."

"Seriously! But that was so quick..."

"Harl, I'm not going forever I'm just getting a shower... Come on Harl I will only be like 15 minutes, if that."

"Fine. I'm gonna time you tho Red and if you're not out in 15 I'm coming in to get you." now I don't know if I want her to hurry or take her sweet ass time. Oh my gosh did I seriously just think that....

"Okay, okay Harley I get it." Red laughed and it warmed my heart, I can't remember the last time I heard her laugh. Why has she been locking herself down here anyways? I never see her anymore, I thought she needed the sunlight or whatever. "so you gonna get up now Harl?"

"Oh Yeh sorry Red." I unwrapped my arms from Red and stood up on shaky legs, it felt like they were just about to go to sleep. Red was still on the floor so I offered my hand, Red took my hand in her own and I helped her up.

"Go, go, go 15 minutes starts now Red go!"

"Harl..." Red jogged up the stairs and into the bathroom where she disappeared.

What to do. What to do.... Oh! I should tell Phoebe about the baby, I bet she would love to know... I feel like when ever I talk to Red Phoebe gets left out so it's probably best to catch her up. Phoebe is cool, maybe if I try hard enough I can make Red let her stay if she tidy's up after herself... and me... and the baby.

Thanks for reading hope you enjoyed. What's Phoebe gonna think?! Comments below and as always new part coming soon ~Jw