New Girl| Gmw. (Rucas)

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Riley's Pov.

This morning it was hard to get up. Shawn thought I had smashed my depression. I hadn't. I mean it hadn't completely gone. But it wasn't completely there. I had more good days than bad. Now I was on this happy medication. I didn't mind talking it. I had a good support system around me. I had Lucas. But some days We're bad. I'd miss the feeling of controlling my pain. I'd miss my mom and dad more than others. But I marched on through.

I got out of bed and took my hair out if my braids. Applying a little more makeup than normal. Hide how tired I was. Go to my closet and pulling out a pair of mid rise dark blue jeans and a white long-sleeved crop top putting my necklace, ring, and bracelet on.

As I walk down stairs Shawn took one look at me and knew I wasn't myself today.

Shawn: what's up kiddo

I kinda liked it when he called me kiddo. It reminded me of my parents.

Riley: it's one of them days in it.

Shawn: your not feeling your best hun?

Riley: exactly.

He gave me a tight hug kissing my forehead and rubbing my arm.-This reminded me if my mom.

Shawn: hear. Take your tablets. They'll make you feel better.

Riley: Thanks Shawn.

We heard a knock on the door just as Lucas walked it in I was in the kitchen as Shawn walked up to him

Shawn: she's woken up not 100% so just keep an eye on her okay.

Lucas: of cores sir.

Shawn: please dude call me Shawn.

Lucas: okay Shaw.

I walked out of the kitchen and gave Lucas the best smile I could before he gave me a big hug. My head buried in his chest.

Lucas: ready to go babe?

Riley: Yep I'm ready. Bye uncle Shawn.

Lucas: see ya Shawn.

Shawn: wow you called me Shawn for once. See you guys later.

I took Lucas by the hand giving it a squeeze before letting go and giving him a little smile. He grabbed hold of my by the waist and pulled me in for a kiss. God I loved kissing him. I never wanted it to stop. As Shawn poked his head around the door,

Shawn: hey! school, now, hurry.

Riley: sorry uncle Shawn.

I skipped to the car getting into the passenger side. I was feeling better already.

As we got to school Lucas took me by the hand. It was like he was afraid of losing me. Like I was gonna run away.

Lucas: babe.

Riley: Yes.

Lucas: You know how you know more about your parents now.

Riley: Yes?

Lucas: would you like me to take you to see there grave?  I mean it's just a thought.

Riley: you thought of that?  That's so sweet and thoughtful.

Lucas: so do you wanna go? We can go to the shop after school. Buy a lovely bunch of flowers?

Riley: I would love to. Thanks for such a lovely idea.

I put my arms around Lucas' neck he placed his around my waist. After we finished making out and people had stopped staring we walked into home room.

During study hall I sat in the library. I was gonna try and write a letter to put on my mom and dad's grave.
Dear mom and dad... No too formal soo, this is hard for me... No doesn't sound right. As I was scrunching up paper after paper I felt someone put their hands on my shoulder.

Riley: since when did you come in the library?

Lucas: since we were in hear.

Riley: naw cute.

Lucas: so, what you doing?

Riley: I'm trying to write my mom and dad a letter.

Lucas: what's wrong?

Riley: I duno what to say.

Lucas: just write anything. I'm sure it will be perfect and your mom and dad will love whatever you write.

Riley: thanks, you always know the right words to say that make me feel 100x better.

Lucas: Well, I do try.

I gave him a little kiss on the lips before he got up disappearing into the football field. Ofcores he couldn't be seen dead in the library. But that's what I loved about him. Shit! I love him?!