Seven Stars- LEGACY 1 (AWESOMELY COMPLETED)

Don't Cry

13

Crush ko po si Captain Yoo.
Shoutout sa baliw kong kaibigan. Yeonnie~~

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I really don't know what to say or how to start. I don't even have any fucking clue on how to erase everything that I am feeling right now. I might not know my first step, but I know I must start now. I have to get rid of my addiction.

My Mom was like me. She was also desperate for Papa. She loved Papa until she was left with nothing. Like mother, like daughter nga talaga, hindi ba? Maybe her story gave me a silent hope. Umasa din akong katulad ni Papa, matututunan din ni Seven na mahalin ako. I want to be seen as a woman, not a child. Pero sa aspetong ito nagkakaiba ang kwento namin ni Mama. My story does not have its own fairytale like ending.

Inayos ko lahat ng pinturang nagamit ko sa pagpipinta. Tomorrow, Kuya Caius will come and take me home. Ito na ang huling araw ko sa Italy. Soon, I will be gone. My fairytale is now about to end. Clearly, I am Eponine. Akala ko ay mababago ko ang kwento but I was wrong. Until now, Marius still loves Cosette.

Pinunasan ko ang kumapit na pintura sa kamay ko habang nakatitig sa painting ko. I painted the seven stars. This is my last painting for him. This is the last time I will do something for him. I might be his Eponine, his unrequited love. But after this, I promise that I will be somebody's Cosette. I will find my own Marius. Hindi ko na ipipilit ang sarili ko sa iba. I will take love and give love willingly. I will no longer force it down somebody else's throat.

Kinuha ko iyong canvass ko at umalis sa may garden. Magmula kahapon noong nagkasagutan kami ni Seven ay hindi pa kami nag uusap. But I have to do this. I need this closure. Isang beses ko pang isasampal sa sarili ko na hanggang dito lang talaga ako.

Kumatok ako sa opisina niya at narinig ko ang pagpapapasok niya sa akin. I peeked inside and saw him staring at his laptop. Tuluyan na akong pumasok at doon pa lang niya ako tiningnan.

"Chantal? What are you doing here?" he asked. Lumapit ako sa lamesa niya at inilapag ang painting ko. Tinitigan niya iyon kaya tumikhim ako.

"That's for you." I said. Tiningala niya ako habang nakakunot noo.

"Why?"

I just smiled. "When we were still a kid, you taught me the legend of the seven stars. You told me that if you wish under the seven stars on the seventh day of the seventh month, your wish will come true. Eversince then, I made a wish. I wished for you."

I breathe hard. I can feel the sides of my eyes burning. Di ako nainform na ganito pala kahirap ang closure. Kaya pala iyong iba ay basta na lang bumibitaw.

"I don't understand Chantal."

'Is it hard to believe I'm okay
After all, it's been awhile
Since you walked away
I'm way past crying
Over you finding someone new
You turned my days into nights (days into nights)
But now I see the light
And this maybe a big surprise to you'

"I realized that I have been living in fantasies eversince I learned the legend of the seven stars. Maybe you are right, Seven. I am still a child. I am still a firm believer of dreams and pixie dust. Pero alam mo, I will change na. I will be someone who will believe in the harsh reality. Kaya I am giving it back to you." I said and pushed the painting more to him.

"Cha..."

"I went here because I know I have to try. I went here just to be with you. I did not realize that you did not want me to be here. You don't want to be with me. I get it now Seven." anas ko. Seven kept staring at me. He was looking at me as if I was a two headed snake.