Chezter POV
Nakatingin ako ngayon sa napakagandang tanawin sa harap ko. Malayang tinatangay ng hangin ang buhok niya. There's a happy smile pasted on her face. I smiled, overwhelmed knowing that I can make this beautiful girl in front of me smile. Natatamaan rin ng kaunting sinag ng araw yung mukha nya. Mas maganda pa sya sa sunrise.
Sobrang daming nangyari nitong nakaraan sa amin sa bahay. My lola got sick and is now bedridden. Yung lola ko ang nagpalaki samin kaya naman masyado akong apektado.
Noon nga hinahabol pa niya ako ng tabo kapag ayaw o tinatamad akong maligo. Tapos minsan susuhulan pa nya ako. Pagkatapos niya akong paliguan magluluto siya ng cassava cake. Tutulungnan ko pa syang manguha ng cassava sa likod-bahay namin sa probinsya noon. Tuwing umaga naman sinasama niya akong bumili ng pandesal sa may bakery tapos kapag naglalakad na kami pabalik may makakasabay kaming traktora na may sakay na mga magsasaka tapos papasakayin kami. Gustung-gusto ni lola ang paglalakad sa may bukid tuwing umaga at hapon. Pero ngayon, mahina na sya at di na niya kaya. Gusto kong ako naman ang mag-alaga sa kanya.
There's so much craziness surrounding me
There's so much going on, it gets hard to breathe
When all my faith has gone, you bring it back to me
You make it real for me
Umiyak pa ko noon nung sinabi ng doktor na masyado ng matanda si lola at nanghihina na sya kaya may posibilidad na hindi na sya magtagal. Nagalit pa ko sa doktor na nagsabi non. Kasi bakit ganoon sya magsalita? Trabaho niyang magpagaling ng tao kaya bakit di niya pagalingin yung lola ko?
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"Chezter, the doctor is right naman di ba? Matanda na si lola mo. The doctor can't make miracles happen but your prayers can. So wag mo ng sisihin yung doctor hah? Kawawa naman siya, I'm sure he's doing his best too para mapahaba yung life ng lola mo." Shendel said when I called her and told her what I feel.
It's always been like that with Shendel. Kaya kong sabihin sa kanya lahat ng nararamdaman ko. Kaya kong ipakita sa kanya ang weakest side ko. When I think everything that's happening to me is unreasonable, she'll explain it and she'll make me understand everything. That's one of the reasons why I fell for her.
"Basta magpray ka lang. Magpipray rin ako para sayo, your family and your lola. Andito lang ako hah? Be strong Chez."
With her words of encouragement, I'm trying to be strong.
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When I'm not sure of my priorities
When I've lost sight of where I'm meant to be
Like holy water washing over me
You make it real for me
And I'm running to you, baby
You are the only one who saves me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me
Kahit na di na kami madalas magkita ramdam ko pa rin ang suporta nya sakin. She understands me. She makes me stronger. She keeps my faith. She saves me.
When my head is strong but my heart is weak
I'm full of arrogance and uncertainty
When I can't find the words
You teach my heart to speak
You make it real for me, yeah
And I'm running to you, baby
You are the only one who saves me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me
