The Boy In The Red Blazer

Chapter 19

The doctor left.
"Baby? What did he mean accident?"
Brendon begged, crying uncontrollably.
I calmed myself down and explained.
"Meghan, baby! Why didn't you tell me?"
He kissed my forehead.
"I want this baby so bad Bren."
He nodded.
"Me too. All we can do is hope."
The nurse came in and told us we could go when we were ready.
I got up and went to the car.
Brendon ran after me.
I was crying in the back seat with the doors locked.
He knocked in the window.
"Baby? Please let me in."
I refused.
Unfortunately he had his keys and unlocked the door.
He crawled into the backseat and snuggled me.
"Honey, it's okay. We won't loose this baby."
He held my shaking body in his arms, trying to calm me down.
"We'll get through this, together, I promise."
He snuggled himself into my neck.
"Bren I'm scared. I can't loose another baby."
He kissed me and helped me to the front seat.
"Let's go home. Do you want to call anybody?"
I shook my head.
"Not now."
We got back to everyone and they saw we were upset.
Brendon agreed to tell them while I went to take a bath.
I went to the bathroom and turned on the water.
While the water was running I changed into a red satin robe.
I pulled my hair into a perfectly messy bun.
I stood at the mirror and pulled the robe away, exposing my stomach.
I was bigger than usual but i didn't look pregnant, I looked as if I had gained a few pounds.
I closed my eyes as a few tears managed to escape.
"Please lord. I know I don't pray anymore. After I lost my parents I stopped.
But I need you.
Brendon and I are a mess.
I can't loose this beautiful baby.
Please.
I promise to stay faithful. Go to church, believe again.
I need this baby."
I sat in the edge on the bed until I was calm.
I made my way to the bath and slid my robe off before climbing in.
The warm water felt so nice and I felt the stress fade away.
I laid my head back and closed my eyes.
"Knock knock."
I opened my eyes and Brendon was standing in his sweatpants.
"Hey baby." I said smiling.
"Are you doing okay?" He asked walking over to the tub and crouching down to my level.
"I'm still scared but I'm relaxed." He kissed my forehead and started rubbing my shoulders.
"We can cancel the concert tonight."
Shit I forgot, I'm a part of the concerts now.
"Oh. I can't let you do that."
"But you also can't sing."
I nodded.
"But you still can."
He nodded.
"Okay. Your brother is coming over, I don't know about everyone else. Bring them down to the concert, enjoy yourselves."
I nodded and got out of the tub, wrapping myself in the robe.
"Bren?" I said as he was putting on his tee and jeans.
"Yeah?"
"Are YOU okay?"
He walked over to me and wrapped his arms around me.
"Yes. I'm okay, mostly worried about you."
I smiled and kissed him.
"I've got to go. See you soon."
He left and I heard him run down the hall.
"Hey Meghan." Michaela's voice was so happy, it cheered me up.
"Brendon called us. I'm so sorry."
She ran to me and pulled me into a hug.
"Jay is on his way, him and Devin stopped to use the restroom."
"I'm going to go get get dressed." I said.
I went and changed into a flowered romper with basic black heels.

When I got back they were all sitting together, reading something.
"Hey guys. Do you wanna go watch the concert?"
They nodded and we made our way down the hall.
We got there just in time.
Brendon saw I was standing there and smiled.
They sang their usual songs and it was like any other night.
He came backstage and kissed me.
They went to the dressing room but I stayed behind, a few fans had found me.
When I got back I heard them talking.
"I'm worried about her." Michaela said.
"We almost lost her when Jarred was around.
After she lost that baby she was a mess."
"I'm scared too. I love her and I don't want to lose her or see anything happen to her." Brendon's voice was shaky, he was holding back tears.
"I've had girlfriends but I never saw a future, I never saw us being a family,  getting married,none of that.
But Meghan changed that. I wanna marry her, I wanna have a family. I fucking love her."
He was crying now and it broke my heart.
"I love you too." I whispered.