She And I

Is It the Time?

The early years of our group then was cyclical.

One, Pressure/Stress.

Two, Success/Failure.

And three, Repeat if necessary.

Those were the days that we were worried of career and personal lives, especially Anna. I witnessed her changing mood and craving food. There were weird times too. She would call anyone of us to attend to her needs, then she gets mad. She even screamed at me once for nothing. There were even times that all four of us wanted to bang our heads, because we were so tired. We even had misunderstandings, but these shortcomings never hindered our recordings.

We were informed that we are flying to Japan soon. It was for a song contest.

Yep. We engaged in song contests as a quartet.

But I was thinking, What on earth is this? How about Anna? Seriously?

Given the situation, how can she travel?

"Hey, you okay with it?" I asked Anna.

"We're a team, Fri. I wanna be with you. I feel safe with all of you too."

I felt like protecting her. Well, I made a promise, remember? "Is it safe for you to travel?"

I saw her eyebrows meeting. Oh no! Wrong switch! "You ask too many questions, Fri! I'm getting annoyed! I don't care what the doctor says. I wanna be with you guys so bad!!!" Then she was about to cry after saying so, then she hugged me. "I just wanna help you...*sniffs*"

I brushed her hair as she continued to cry. "Hey... We're just concerned of little Anna here. You're like our little sister, and now you're having a child. It's natural for me to be concerned of you. I promised to take care of you, remember?"

We were sitting on a sofa that time. Well, I was seated. She just laid there with her head on my lap. "Hey. Sorry about earlier. I am glad you care for me, and little me." She stroked her tummy then. She reminded me of myself years ago, kind of a decade ago.

"Hey. It's okay. I understand how you feel." I just continued stroking her long blonde hair. We often bond like this in between recording sessions, or simply during weekends and breaks. "I just want you to know that I'll always be here to support you, little sister."

"Really? Little sister? That doesn't sound right. Haha!!! But you sound cute when I call you Big Sister."

I smiled at her. It was really a funny statement, then I slipped, "You look adorable." What was that?

She looked at me with confusion. I was already staring at her blue eyes, and her blooming face. And she was staring at me too, "Fri, you're blushing."

"It's just make-up." I looked away. I hope she won't find out too soon.

It was a stupid idea to say it. Ugh! When I looked at her again, she was just smiling. Don't tell me you have found out. "What's wrong with me? Is it time for me to remove my blush?"

"Nope. Baby just kicked me." She giggled again. She toom my hand and put it on her tummy. "Feel it, Fri." I felt it. It was really an awesome moment to be with my best friend. I smiled at her again. She asked  me, "Does it remind you of something or someone? Do you miss this?"

That was a random question, but okay. "I miss this sometimes, but having the two is already enough. Besides, Ben and I already have four. Like he has two kids, I have two kids. I guess they're enough for us now."