She And I

I Keep Them on The Floor Beside My Bed

2010

After what happened that year, the four of us continued receiving more awards. We were even put in the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame. It was a thrilling experience. It was truly an honor, plus an emotional night. (Still, why was Madonna inducted ahead of us? Just kidding. 😁)

It was somewhat awkward at first, because it was just Benny and I who attended the event. Oh and I brought my grandson Jonathan.

Anyway, since Ben and I's case was closed, we just tried not to touch each other so much. We still talked, but it was not the same as the way when we were intimate. However, we managed to genuinely smile at each other.

Did you even see when he almost...almost held my hand? His gestures, his manners were still there. By the end of our speeches, we even kissed each other. Oh! And we were too close during the press conference. We even shared one look, you know? I bet BenFrid shippers were delighted after seeing that moment, but I have to disappoint you that it's too impossible for us to reconcile as a couple. Okay, I missed him, but it's not the way you think it is.

Before we parted ways, we simply had small conversation. You know, morning coffee and tea happened. It was just a simple catching up.

"So how are you? I heard you're in a relationship. And are you still seeing Little Sister?" He asked me. What an opener?

"Yes. I am in a relationship with him and..." I paused. "...her."

"Til now? I thought it was over the last time we saw each other." He laughed.

I took a sip from my cup. "I don't know. Have you ever had that irresistible feeling when you see your beloved one - feeling that you just couldn't let go of this person out of love? You feel incomplete without him or her."

"I felt that with you. I bet she feels the same way towards you." We stared at each other for seconds. It was just awkward. "Sorry. I was wrong to say that. But I really am sorry for replacing you. I mean I'm still happy, but there are times that I thought what if I never broke up with you. It could have been easy for the two of us to hold hands last night."

"You know I couldn't bear but surrender to you with every look and smile you give me. You still made me complete though you let me go. I won't be this Frida without you. Now I know how to fight for love for real. Honestly, there's still a place for you in my heart, but she has consumed most of the space. Do you get me? Sorry for the way I acted after all these years."

He took my hand and kissed it. Oh goodness! I never wanted to remember those moments when we first met at the bar and all our silly memories. However, they will always be part of my story. He'll always be a part of me.

"Now I want you to be happy with whatever you're doing. I am hoping that someday you will find out who is the one. Take care." He told me as he put his free hand on top of mine. "I have to go. Good bye."

I was still stuck at my blank stare, reminiscing every moment with him. But I snapped out of it. I remembered that there was someone else who is destined for me. I smiled at him and waved goodbye. "Take care of yourself too."

Wow! Just wow! I was glad to have let it out. I simply felt awesome after that. I realized that Anna and I's fight for love was just worth it.

Years have passed, I have heard that there would be a museum for us. It was just an amazing experience to actually retrieve those memorabilia and even some clips.

I even saw how she and I became closer. It was nostalgia, I tell you. It was amazing to see success and failure in one building. Above all those, what mattered was the love for music and life. And as for me, the love between she and I.