She And I

Right Now: January 2016

"Hey Frida, are you free on the 20th?" It was Björn on the phone.

"Why?" I was confused. He randomly called me on a normal day. Oh well...

"Have you forgotten? Mamma Mia The Party?"

"Oh! That! Damn aging!" We laughed. "Sure I'm free on that day...I mean night."

"Bring your partner with you..." He jokingly told me.

Gosh! Oh yeah... I'm currently in a relationship with someone else. "Who are you talking about?" I paused. "Just kidding."

Of course Anna and I's on-off relationship has been in the process. Day after day, I kept on thinking of her face, her lips, her smile, though I am with someone else right now. Basically, it was the same old thing when I was with my previous men.

What's with her? She was just an angel that I couldn't bear to let go. Those years of undercover under covers were simply fulfilling.

"Who were you thinking? You are sometimes weird."

I was still processing those thoughts. 

"Hey Frida? Hello? Dead air?"

"Sorry Big Brother. I was trying to recall if I was truly free. Haha!!!" OF COURSE I LIED. I bet he knew I was thinking. Do you still remember how I UNASHAMINGLY kissed Anna in front of these two men?

"Please be there Frida... I am about to call her by the way."

This is what I've been talking about. "Wow! You'll make a move now huh?"

"Well, it is better if the invitation is from me than you. Am I right?"

"Of course. Hey! I'm sorry for hurting her too, you know? I mean there were times that I hurt her."

"Does it matter? You know we no longer..."

"Just listen to me." I cut him. "I know your feelings for her are still there. I know there is still a room for her in your heart. I was just saying that she and I's relationship was a..."

"...mutual decision?" He added.

"Yes. Exactly. We're just taking little steps after all that we've been through."

"Sometimes you just have to explore new horizons."

"That's deep. You really are old! Haha!!!"

"If I'm old, then you're old too." He laughed at me. "So I'll see you on that day, okay?"

"I won't let you down this time big brother. Can I ask for a favor?"

I was thinking of sending my regards to Anna, but that's too much after all we had been through. "Just say 'Hi' to her for me. Thank you."

"I know you'll say that." He paused. "Frida, you could have just told us the truth before you know?"

"I thought you cannot remember a thing about that." Honestly, you're the only one who never knew.

"Come on! I lied. I am tired of this celebrity status."

"I know...I know." I paused. "Honestly, I never intended to let you know a thing about Anna and I.

"So I'll see you on the 20th?"

"Yeah. Sure. Have a great day big sis!"

"Ew! It sounds awkward coming from you. You're still big brother." He still is!

"Okay Frida, if you say so. I have to call her now, okay? Good bye."

"See you on the 20th." Then we dropped the phone.