31 Days• Odell Beckham Jr. [COMPLETED & EDITING]

Day 31: Final Goodbyes

"Maybe it's true that we don't know what we have until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we're missing until we find it."~ Anonymous
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(Diary entry at the end)

December 31, 2015

I sat there in the chair shaking. Seeing Odell like that, made me have a panic attack. I never knew why he just started bleeding out of nowhere.

"Family of Odell Beckham?" My head shot up, as the doctor call his name. "And you are?" She asked.

"His friend," I said quickly. The doctor nodded. "Well, is his mother around?"

I shook my head,"No, me and his friend is the only ones here." I said looking back at Omar.

"How is he?" I asked the her. She sighed. "He's weak, and one of his Kidneys failed."

This couldn't of been happening.

"The doctors discovered, that there was rat poison, in his food." I shook my head.
"Well, is he gonna make it?" The doctor sighed.

"No, he can't die." My voice cracks slowly. "We're doing all we can miss." I shook my head. "Well you have to do more!"

Omar came up to me,"Leilani calm down." Tears left from my eyes.

"Can we see him?" Omar asked, as he held me.

"He might be sleep, but yes you may. His room is 118." He nodded. "Thank you."

The doctor walked away. "Omar, this was supposed to be me." I cried. "Not him!"

"Leilani, everything happens for a reason." I shook my head. "I should be laying on that bed." I sniffed.

"All he wanted to do was love me, and I pushed him away! This is my punishment! I should've just forgave him!" I yelled. Omar pulled me in tight, as I cried more.

People was staring but I didn't care. "He loved me. He loved me Omar, but I was too damn blind to see that!"

I walked in Odell's life, and I made him catch feelings for me.  I shouldn't never walked in his life, if I knew this would be the outcome.

"Can we see him?" I asked Omar, and he nodded. I got up and we walked to room 118. I opened the curtain, to see Odell laying on the bed.

I walked in the room, and sat on the chair beside the bed. "Hey," he tried to turn his head, but he was too weak. He skin was pale, because he lost so much blood.

"Hey...Lani." Odell weakly smiled. I never wished, seeing Odell like this. Seeing him like this broke my heart.

"I-I'm sorry Odell." Tears fell from my eyes. "I sorry for--"

"Shh..." He says. "This isn't your fault. This is what I deserve."

"How?!?" I asked him. "No person should deserve this!" I cried. "I was supposed to be the one dying! Not you."

Odell finally looked at me, with his bloodshot eyes.

"Maybe, God changed his mind. Maybe he knew that you wasn't ready to leave. Maybe he knew that you weren't finished exploring new things, Going on new adventures, Finding new love, he knew that you wasn't done living your life."

Odell smiled, and held my hand. "Leilani, I just want you to know, everything I did with Chloe, I wished never happened. I regret every single thing." He sighed.

I nodded, and he wiped my tears. "You'll always have a special place in my heart. All the arguments we had, the times you cried, the sweet things we did together, will always have a spot." Odell smiled.

I nodded and sniffed. "Stop crying, baby. I'm not worth crying over." He chuckled.

"You are, Odell you was the first shoulder I cried on. My first love. I can't stop crying. Even though, before I might've not showed how much you mean to me, but deep down inside, I knew that if I ever lost you, I would cry."

He wiped my tears. This was very hard on me. Seeing him go through this, was wrong.

"I love you Leilani, don't ever forget that." Odell says before closing his eyes.

"Odell..no...please don't do this. You're stronger than this." I said.

No answer.

"Odell..." My voice cracks.

*Beeeeeeeeppp*

I looked at the Heart Monitor, to see the red straight line on the screen.

The doctors ran in the room. "Miss you have to leave."

"No! No! I'm not!" I cried. "Odell, you have to wake up! I need you!"

The doctors grabbed Odell's bed and pushed him out of the room. I sat on the floor and cried. Omar sat next to me and held me.

"Shh...Leilani it's ok." And I shook my head. "It's not."

"I never got a chance to say, I love you."

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Leilani's Diary Entry:
Today, was a very hard day for me. Today was supposed to be the day I died, but I didn't. Today was the day Odell died. The day he died of rat poison. I couldn't help but cry. I know he told me not too, but I couldn't help it. Odell might've not been the best boyfriend, but he taught me things. He showed me what's it's like being in a relationship. Sure he didn't make good decisions, but neither did I. I'm happy that I could spend my 31 days with Odell. All the memories we made, the times we had, good and bad, I will cherish every moment of it. I'm sad that Odell is gone, but I'm happy that he's in a better place.

R.I.P Odell, My first Love.

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Rip Odell, Fly High baby👼🏽

I know y'all hate me for this. I actually got emotional writing this chapter😭

Epilogue up next!

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