A Dangerous Wave

17

"You did what?" Tina almost falls from her hammock.

"I just thought I saw him." She is still staring at me with wide eyes. "But when I looked again, no one was there."

"I sure hope no one was, especially him."

"Me, too. But I am afraid." My hands begin to light shake. "When I thought I saw him, fear shot through me like never before."

"What did Liam say?"

"He was concerned, asked if I'm okay."

"Did you tell him the truth?"

"No way." I begin to shake my head from left to right. "He doesn't know about any of this. And I'd like to keep it that way."

"But if your relationship is going to get more serious then what?" I bite the knuckle on my index finger. It's something I do when I'm nervous. "You can't keep this a secret from him, Darcy."

"No, but I'm going to try."

"I don't approve of your decision. Liam needs to know the truth. He's dating you. But the problem is, that he is dating a fake you." Tina says seriously to me. "He thinks you're this perfect girlfriend. But there is much more to you and he has no fucking idea."

"I don't fucking care what you think, Tina!" I yell back to her, irritated. "This is my choice! And I am not going to tell him any of that! Don't even try to pursue me to do it!" Tina doesn't say anything after that. "Plus, I'm done with that and him." I get up from the hammock and walk away from Tina.

I've had enough of her telling me what to do. This is something I have to decide myself. And my decision is that the secret is going to stay hidden between Tina and me.

An hour has passed with me being in my room. Tina's words still eco in my head from earlier. I've been sitting in front of the window the whole time and thinking over the whole situation. What if I really saw him last night?

That would mean serious trouble for everyone I know, especially Tina. She is the one who helped me get out of the deep shit I was in back in Miami. But I don't know how he could find me here. We told no one where I am, except mine and Tina's family. They are the only ones who know where we are located.

I take a deep breath and get up from the window seat. I don't even know why I'm doing this. It's something I promised to leave alone forever.

With hesitation, I walk to the other side of my bed and open one of the nightstand's drawers. The sane side is telling me not to even look at the thing, because I know it holds the dark side of me. But I don't. I move away the many papers in the drawer. Not even Tina knows I still have this. I lied to her when I said I got rid of it.

There it is; the thing, which I got for my birthday three years ago. It's such a strange gift, so useless. Those were the thoughts I got when I received that. But I didn't know then that thing is going to save and also ruin my life.

Now, when I hold it in my hand after a good month, I remember why I quit. And I only touched it then, because I had to unpack my stuff because of the move. It fits into my hand like a glove. The feeling is so strange after all this time. But at the same time, it's so familiar. I close my eyes and just feel the not so heavy object in my hand.

A sudden knock at my door startles me. My eyes snap open in a second. I shuffle with the black object and try to quickly put it back.

"Hey." Liam's voice says from the door while I am still struggling with covering the thing with papers.

"Hi." My voice is laced with panic. Thank god I shut the drawer before Liam could see what it's holding.

"What do you have there?" I stand up from the floor and turn around to face him.