A Dangerous Wave

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I am woken up because my side hurts. I open my eyes and sit up in bed. Liam is still sleeping and that's when I get elbowed once more. Damn, is the boy dreaming of fighting someone? I wince at the pain, but it's nothing too serious. I've been through worse; mentally and physically.

With a sigh, I get up from the bed, the sunlight is shining through the window and at me as I walk across the room and open the door to head to the bathroom. I am still naked from the night before and I left my clothes in the bathroom.

"Where are you going, baby?" I turn around when I hear Liam mumble from the bed. I see he's awake. I hope I'm not the reason for that.

"To the bathroom." I answer just when Liam sits up on the bed, his hair sticking all over the place and the sleepy expression is still on his face. I turn around and go to the bathroom. I really need to pee.

I do my business quickly and brush my teeth and so on and so on. I finally get dressed in my clothes from yesterday, the ones I was going to wear but didn't in the end due to mine and Liam's activities. I smile at the memory of us together last night. It was so amazing. Everything was amazing, really.

I fell for Liam mostly because he is such a nice guy all the time. But I've come to realize before that whenever we get intimate, he becomes more demanding and wilder. He likes to take control of the moment. It's a very different side of him, the side which I am not really accustomed. But I am getting used to it more and more. I have to admit, I kind of like it.

When I get torn away from my thoughts, I realize I've been grinning to myself like crazy. And it is crazy; the whole thing is absolutely bonkers. How I've managed to fall for a guy so fast after moving here is beyond weird for me. I've never been the one to fall so fast. Yes, I've had crushes and such, but never have I fallen for someone in a matter of a few short months. And yes, I've had a boyfriend before. Even then I didn't fall for him so fast and not nearly as hard. I didn't even love him; I loved the idea of him. As a person, he was horrible.

I go out of the bathroom, this time dressed. I am wearing a blue sports bra, black athletic shorts and over the bra, I am wearing a loose purple crop top, which I had in the bathroom from a few days before. But it's clean, so I just put it on. I've said this to myself so many times and I have to say it again; I have to clean out my dresser. I don't even wear all the clothes I own. Why have them then? It's just a waste of space.

I go back into the room. Liam is now fully dressed and standing near the desk. But what made me bulge my eyes out and panic rushed through me is because he is holding something he wasn't supposed to see, ever.

His eyes snap up to me. "What is this?" He asks. Anger and betrayal is laced within his tone of voice.

"It's nothing." I say. My voice is quiet. I take a step towards Liam and try to snatch the sheets of paper from his grasp. But he moves them away.

"Really?" He is getting more and more pissed by the second. "Because it looks like you've been in contact with your family this whole damn time!" He barks at me and lifts up the letters; the one I received yesterday and the half finished one, which is mine.

"I can explain." I say quietly. I have to admit that I am slightly afraid right now. Not just because of the situation, but of Liam as well. He is pissed and hurt, a lot. And I don't know how to fix this. Everything went to hell.

"How about you tell me the fucking truth?" I flinch at his harsh tone. I look into his eyes and see hurt and betrayal, but there is also anger. I am not used to Liam being this way with anyone. The only time I saw him this angry was when the guy at a party hit me and he hit him back, protecting me. This is not a side of Liam I want to see.

I start to shake my head from left to right and bring my hands over my face and slide them down. "I can't." I mumble under my breath.

"I want to know, Darcy! I want to fucking know why you've made up a lie about why you moved here!" Tears are welling up in my eyes, but I don't let them flow down my cheeks. "Because your family doesn't hate you one bit! And judging by this letter you got from them, you've never been in a fight and your father never cheated on your mom! And who's this Rider dude you've mentioned in your letter?!" His voice got even louder by now due to his anger increasing. I am quiet, not saying a word to him. That's mostly because I don't know what to tell him. I can't tell him the truth. "Tell me!" He barks all of a sudden and I flinch at his tone.

"I can't tell you!" I yell at the top of my lungs back at Liam. He is a bit taken aback by my sudden burst, but it doesn't affect him much. I feel tears going down my cheeks. I guess I wasn't strong enough to not let them go.

"Why the fuck can't you tell me?! I trusted you with everything and all this time you've been lying to my face!"

"Because I want to protect you!" I blurt out. I can't believe I just yelled that out loud. That wasn't supposed to come out, at all.

"Protect me from what?!"

"I can't tell you!" He doesn't say or yell anything back. "It's too risky if I tell you ... for the both of us!"

After a few moments he speaks up. "I am out of here." He moves past me. But before he could leave the room, I shut the door closed and grab his wrist in my hand, which is snatched from my grip the next second.

"No, don't go, please Liam." I step between the door and him, so he can't leave.

"Then tell me the fucking truth!" I, once again, flinch at his harsh tone.

"You don't want to hear the truth." I shake my head lightly.

"Why the fuck not?!"

"Because it's too dangerous to know! I am too dangerous to know!"

"Don't worry about me knowing you," I furrow my eyebrows, confused. "I thought I knew you, but I guess I don't."

"You do know me, Liam. You know how I am." More tears flow down my cheeks as Liam exits the room and with a few angry strides comes to the stairs. I cry and follow him down. "You know how much I love you." I am desperate.

"No! You don't get to tell me that!" He turns around, me almost crashing into him. "You don't have the right to tell me you love me!"

"But it's the truth." I cry out. "Just please don't leave me."

"Then tell me the truth." He says more calmly than before. "I don't want to date a liar, Darcy. Tell me or that's it." I look up into his eyes with my teary ones. The sapphire eyes of his are sparkling because of the tears he is trying not to let go.

I vaguely shake my head from left to right. "I lose you either way." He didn't see this coming. His facial expression softens, but his jaw is still clenched.

The next thing he does breaks my heart. Without another word, he leaves. He just turned around on his heel and exited the house. This is it. It's all over. I let the man I love walk away from me, possibly forever. I am standing frozen in front of the front door, looking at them. Maybe I am still hoping this isn't real, that he will come back. But no such thing happens. I hear his car drive away and that's when it hits me; he really left. He left me.

I crumbled. My heart crumbled the second he shut the door behind him. All happy feelings left me; they left with him. I feel nothing but sadness. I cover my face with my palms and cry, hard. It's just me, standing there and crying my eyes out.

"Oh, god Darcy." Tina's panicked voice can be heard from my right. Her light but fast footsteps can be heard coming near me and soon I feel arms wrapped around me. "Shhh ..." She soothes my back as she whispers into my ear. "Don't cry, boo."

"H-he found out." I manage to say through tears. "He found out I lied to him."