Breaking Dawn

Chapter 10: Monday, August 14th

"Good morning Bella," Edward says as I walk into the kitchen.
"Where's my mother?" I ask. Usually, she would be cooking breakfast for me, but Edward is. Although my mother can't cook to save her life, she knows how to make edible eggs and omelets.
"It's a Monday, she has work," he reminds me.
Smelling the eggs that are on the stove, my stomach begins to grumble. I've been awake for an hour or so now, it is only nine a.m., but I wanted to lay in bed for a while. I'm not ready to face the day.
I sit on the counter next to the stove and watch Edward. He's yet to make eye contact with me. I can tell that he feels somewhat awkward around me now. "When do you plan on going hunting?"
"I went last night, while everyone was sleeping. Phil got home around midnight."
Phil has been very busy with his career, which is minor league baseball. He doesn't earn much, but he loves what he does.
"Where did you go hunting?" I ask.
"Just some nearby woods," he says, still not looking at me.
I know by "nearby" he means within thirty miles. Nearby to me would be the nearest woods, but he much prefers to hunt as far away from civilization as he can, to avoid any incidents.
The entire morning is just made up of small talk. My mother comes home for lunch, but only stays for thirty minutes, and then she heads back to work.
"So," Edward finally looks at me. "You kissed Jacob."
I stare into his eyes, he says this emotionless. He must have been thinking about this hard.
"Uh... Yes. But it didn't really..." I was going to say it didn't mean anything to me, but that's a lie. "It was just on the cheek, I am not trying to be unfaithful."
"Bella, it's... Okay." I was hoping he wouldn't forgive me, that he would tell me that it is preposterous to kiss someone besides him. I don't want to be forgiven, it makes me feel worse. It twists my stomach into knots.
"Edward, please don't tell me that it's okay. I know it's not okay, I just don't know what to do anymore." I look down at my feet, which are dangling from the tall chair. "I'm just so drained, I can't think straight..."
"That's another reason why I brought you down here. Listen, Bella, I know you love Jacob, and I know you love me, but that's too much for you. I'm flying back to Forks tomorrow morning because you need time to yourself. Jacob pushes you too much, I push you too much, and it's not fair. I just want you to be happy."
"Was this your plan all along?" I ask, feeling hurt that he wants to leave me here.
"No, Bella. I want to stay here with you, I really do, but..." He stops.
"But what?"
"Alice saw us, arguing tomorrow afternoon. It is a bad argument, and I really don't want to do that."
I think that over, playing with the idea of me and Edward fighting. He and I have never really fought, and I don't want to fight, either. "Okay," I finally agree. Maybe time to myself could do me some good.
"But if Alice sees that you're doing nothing and sitting around all day, she says she is flying here to make you go out and do girl stuff." Edward lets out a small smile.
I laugh a little. "Okay, okay. I'll make sure I go for a walk or something."
He leans into me and hugs me closely. I've needed this hug, I've needed him. I love him too much to let him go.
"I love you," he whispers into my ear.
"I love you too," I smile.
Ever since Jacob has admitted to me that he imprinted, Edward has seemed distant. Or maybe I'm distant, and he's giving me my space. Either way, I feel awful, and it is all my fault.
Why didn't Edward tell me before that Jacob imprinted? Did he know? Maybe because Jacob hasn't been a wolf for very long it takes time for that imprinting part of him to "mature".
"So what do you want to do today?" Edward snaps me out of my deep state of thought. I start feeling guilty for thinking of Jacob.
"Uh, we can't do much Edward, it's 91 degrees Fahrenheit, and there are no clouds in the sky." I would say we could go for a walk, but this neighborhood it a sort of crowded area.
"Well then how about today we watch a movie," he suggests. It's too bad he isn't staying another day because tomorrow is supposed to be rainy all day.
We end up watching Romeo and  Juliet, the only half decent movie Renee has in the house. I am not that big of a fan of this movie, though I do like the written version.
I don't even really watch the movie, I watch Edward who is watching the movie, and lowly quoting the movie.
Am I really going to marry Edward someday? At this point, it feels as though it never will happen. What if I were to marry Jake? How different would things be? Is Jake even the type of person to get married? Would Edward and I still be friends? What about my friendship with the rest of Edwards family? Would I really give up all of that for Jake? Would my mom think I'm indecisive, and that I can't maintain a stable, happy relationship? I know my dad would be pleased. What would all of my old school friends think if they found out? Angela and Jessica thought it was a miracle that I started dating Edward, but Mike, Tyler, and Eric thought Edward was a freak.
I want to know what things would be like with Jacob. Curiosity is killing the cat.