adopted by phan *on hold for a bit & about to be under editing*

Chapter 81:

I wake up to my phone ringing, I groaned as I got up and reached it. It was Dan.
"Hey Daniel," I yawned,
"Did we wake you up again?" Dan questioned,
"Oh what, like you two are any better," I snapped back.
"Touché," he laughed,
"Anyway, we called to say we're at the Japan airport and will be at the London one by about 8pm. So we'll be home about 10," Dan told me.
"Okay, I'm home anyway so," I smiled,
"Can't wait to see you," I added.
"Can't wait to see y- Hazel we've gotta go caught our flight see you at 6," he said,
"Okay, see you. And tell Phil I said Hi," I smiled, he hung up. I throw my phone on the sofa and look at Doge. I feed them.

"Wanna go on a walk?" I asked, Doge's eyes perked up and he jumped on me,
"I take that as a yes then," I laughed as I put a lead on him.
I grabbed my phone and keys and head out the door. I put in my earphones and start to listen to my music. I take Doge to a nearby park and played with her a bit. After about an hour, I looked at my phone and decided to head back if I wanted to pick up Dan and Phil.

When we arrived back at the apartment, I fed Doge and called a taxi. I grab a piece of cardboard and wrote in big letters, 'Daniel and Philip.'  By the time I've finished the sign the taxi arrives. I grab my bag before heading to the taxi.

After what seemed like a short journey I arrived at the airport. I paid the driver before grabbing the sign and my bag. I climbed out of the taxi heading into the airport. I looked around for the right terminal,
'Japan arriving in 10 minutes'. I smiled as I headed for the terminal. The walk took about 8 minutes so by the time I got to terminal the flight was landing. I held the sign and waited for them, the passengers started to get off the plane. From a far I saw two tall, awkward men.

"Dads!" I shouted as I run up to them and squeezing them.
"Hey Hazel," Phil smiled,
"Miss us then?" Dan laughed.
"Fuck off you missed me too," I laughed letting go.
"We did," Dan smiled. "Have a nice time?" I asked as we walked out.
"Oh my gosh, it was amazing. Even better than last time," Phil smiled.
"Is it because you were married this time," I winked, they both laughed,
"Maybe," Dan winked back. I internally cringed as we carried on walking until we made it to the outside of the airport.

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We all pile into the front door of the apartment, Doge jumped up at Dan and Phil and started licking them frantically.
"Doge obviously missed you," I chuckled, they both nodded and we all headed back upstairs.

"Damn Haze, how'd you keep the flat so clean?" Dan asked,
"Unlike you I actually clean it," I mocked, Dan rolled his eyes and went straight to his sofa crease.
"Really Daniel? We just came back after having an amazing adventure in Japan and the first thing you do is go straight to your sofa crease!" Phil groaned, rolling his eyes.
"Wowza, you guys really are an old married couple now," I chuckled, throwing myself next to Dan. Phil sits the other side of him.
"That's the way we like it though," Dan smiled, kissing Phil softly. I smile as I roll my eyes.
I look at the time, it's 10:30pm,
"It's late, I'm gonna go to bed," I say, getting up and heading out there room. They both say goodnight to me and I'm off to my room.

***
I lay in bed, just looking at the ceiling emotionless. My brain is a fucking mess at the moment, I easily get stressed, sad, furious and can't think straight.
I'm struggling in my daily life, I cry at every opportunity. I need to tell someone... but I'm scared. I do have amazing friends and family, but I'm worried to tell them. I'm really scared of myself to be honest. My mental state is going down a bit every second I live. I don't necessarily have panic attacks but I can destroy myself with stress and frustration.

My life is great, I got adopted by my idols I mean that's every fangirls dream. And I got that, I'd been wanting that to happen to me and now it's happened I don't know what to do. I'm leaving for university soon, I don't know how I'm going to cope on my own.
I need help, I'm going to tell Dan or Phil and then I'll go to see Steven for his help.
It'll all be okay, it'll work out for the best.

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hey, so it's been awhile hasn't it.
it's been ages actually, i've had time though. time
to think about life; where this books going, where my life is going and my mental state.

that paragraph about hazel's mental state is my own description of myself, i've shown that paragraph to both my dearest and best friends that i trust.
i'm helping myself more and stuff now. but yeah, i'm currently happy in life. i have a plan for my future, i have six weeks off and it's summer.

also i forgot to say, i'm going to edit the book just to fix my grammar and spelling mistakes etc.

see you guys soon, plantboyphilip x