adopted by phan *on hold for a bit & about to be under editing*

Chapter 79:

Ms. Muligan and I sat at the window table. "So, what's new with you then Miss?" I asked her, as I sipped my coffee. "It's going great. The Orphanage is tremendous, the children are happy and the profits also good. Remember David, my son? Well, he got a job at a local hospital and is doing ever well for himself. Everything's going well for once. How about you? How's everything and everyone?" she told me. "Well, Dan and Phil are both fine. They got married a couple weeks ago and are currently in Japan for their honeymoon. Um, I'm fine. I got in York University, which is exciting and a massive shock," I told Ms. Muligan. "Well done sweetie. How's your girlfriend?" she smiled. "Um, the other day my girlfriend had a heart attack, but she's gone to visit her grandparents now. She's fine now though, she struggles with stress and something caused her to freak out and have one. I literally just came from the hospital," I sighed, "I'm so sorry. Are you okay? I know your dads are away and everything. How's your mental health. Has anything happened recently?" Ms. Muligan asked. "I'm fine. Dan and Phil's friends are going to be staying with me for a bit as they're here for a job. And nothing has happened recently, in December I did have a breakdown. I severely cut myself, I cried and I fainted. I woke up three weeks later in hospital," I mumbled. "Have you cut recently?" Ms. Muligan asked concerned. I tried dodged the question but she wouldn't let me. "Well, have you?" she asked, I sighed and nodded.

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"I've got to run but you know my number so call me whenever," Ms. Muligan told me as she hugged me goodbye. "I know. I will," I smiled. "And Hazel. Please don't cut, you were the happiest I've seen you in a while the other day. Please keep it up honey, just be happy, for me. Bye sweetie," she smiled, leaving me. "Bye Miss," I smiled back. I put my headphones on and made my way to the apartment.
When I got in, Doge jumped onto me taking me to the floor. I laughed and got up. We went up to the kitchen and I put away the shopping and fed Doge. I cleaned up a bit and did some laundry. By the time I finished everything it was 10pm, I checked my phone. Chris had texted me, 'Hey Hazel, I'm so sorry but Peej and I are going to be so late we've got to stay in the nearest hotel. We'll drop by tomorrow though if that's okay. Once again, so sorry. -Chris'. I sighed and texted back, 'Hey Chris, it's fine. Drop by tomorrow if you want to. I'll be here :) -Hazel'. I throw my phone next to me on the sofa and close my eyes.

I'd not felt like that in a while, I felt like shit. My life was going fine, I felt guilty for Sam's heart attack. I felt like I needed to scream, but I physically couldn't. I needed to cry my heart out, but I physically couldn't. I needed time to myself to sort myself out, but I didn't have time. I needed to speak to someone, talk to them about my feelings, about how I felt, but I didn't feel like I had anyone to talk to. But to be honest, I did. I had two amazing dads, I had amazing friends, a supportive girlfriend. I had so many people who cared about me. I needed to tell someone quickly, before its bottled up for too long and it all comes out.

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I woke up to Doge barking. I jumped up and stumbled over to where he was. He was by the front door, I looked to see someone on the other side. It was probably Chris and Peej. I opened the door to see a delivery guy. "Hello, is Mr & Mrs Lester-Howell home?" he asked, "Um, Mr and Mr Lester-Howell aren't home. Have they got a package?" I asked, he nodded. "Are you a family member?" he questioned, I nod, "Daughter." He asked me to sign the package and left me a massive box. I moaned as I brought up the massive box up the many stairs and placed it in their bedroom. I was on my way to the living room when I got a call from Dan. "Hey Dan," I said as I answered the phone. "Hey Hazel. How's it going?" he asked, "Good, Chris and Peej got held up at work last night so they couldn't stay but they did say they'd visit today. How about you?" I laughed, "That's a shame and yeah it's good. Today we're making the most of it as it is our last day here," Dan sighed. "I don't wanna go!" I heard Phil shout in the background. "All good things must come to an end," I chuckled, "Oh yeah, a massive package came for you today. I had to carry it up those stairs, my backs killing me," I mumbled. "Really, Phil! We've got a package! Do you know what it would be?" Dan asked Phil in the background. "No, not really? Do you?" Phil asked, "Maybe it's the massive sparkly, purple dildo I ordered," Dan laughed. "That's very inappropriate Daniel," I frowned. "We've got to go Hazel. Stay safe and we'll see you in two days," Phil said, "Okay, have a fun last day guys, bye," I smiled. "AND DON'T TOUCH MY DILDO!" Dan shouted before hanging up. I laughed as I entered the living room, throwing myself on the sofa. Doge jumping onto me. I smiled as I mumbled, "I mean, life's not that bad. Is it?"

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a/n: hey guys, sorry for a late update again. today i had my cancer jab yay, sense the sarcasm. that shit fucked me up badly. but got a three day weekend so i'll be able to do a lot of writing ;)
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