My Brother's Best Friend

Chapter 3

I open my eyes and quickly shut them as a pounding headache takes over. Once I find the will to open my eyes I notice I'm not in my own room. I look around and see an arm around my waist. I look back and see a naked Blake. I quickly look down and realize that I'm naked also. I sit up and hiss at a sharp pain from down there. Blake stirs and slowly opens his eyes. I tighten the sheet around my chest and his eyes bulge out. He sits up and runs a hand through his hair. I look down as my eyes fill with tears.

"Are you ok?" he asks

"No. I slept with my brother's best friend...Even worse I lost my virginity and I was drunk" I say as a tear slips out

He rubs my back as I silently cry. Once I realize I'm still naked, I wrap the sheet around me before getting up. I ignore the pain between my legs and pick my scattered clothes up from the floor and go in his bathroom. As I close the door I look in the mirror and see a huge hickey on my neck. I let a few tears slip as I change into my clothes and walk out to see Blake dressed as well. I walk over to the bedside table and take my purse. I look at my phone to see multiple texts and calls from Ashley and Josh. The realization of my sleeping with my brother's best friend settled in and I quickly turn and walk out of the room and house.

I walk to my car and get in and let all of my tears fall. I cry and lay my head on the steering wheel. How could I be so stupid and careless? After 10 minutes of crying I begin to feel numb as my tears stop. I start the car and drive home. Once I park in the driveway I get out and lock my doors. As I walk on the porch I take my shoes off and carry them as I quietly walk in my house. The last thing I need right now is Josh or mom finding me sneaking back in. I slowly walk upstairs in my room and almost scream when I find Ashley sitting on my bed.

"Ashley? What the hell?" I whisper yell

"Thank god you're ok" she says as she hugs me

"Why wouldn't I be?" I ask

"Because you wasn't answering my calls" She says

"Sorry my phone died" I lie being very careful to not let her see the hickey

"Oh ok well you are so lucky I didn't tell your brother" she says

"Yea thanks for not telling him I would be dead by now" I say "I need a shower and I'm still tired so I'll text you tomorrow"

"Ok" She says before leaving

I sigh and walk to my bathroom. I get undressed as I run the water to get it nice and warm. As I get undressed the memories rush into my mind. The way his eyes looked, the way he kissed me, the way he touched and caressed me, the way I gave him consent. Tears fall from my eyes and I wipe them away. I get in the shower and start scrubbing my body to get the feel of his skin on mine, to get the smell of sex off of me.

15 minutes later I get out and put on spandex shorts, and a sweatshirt over it. I lay in my bed and go through all of my texts from Ashley.

Where are you?
Hellloooo?

Are you ok?
Please text me?
Call meeee
Don't make me call your brother
Please don't be dead

I chuckle at her "threats". Next I go to Josh's message

I'm staying over a friend's house don't wait up

I scroll and see that Luke has texted me multiple times

I know I messed up
Please hear me out
I didn't mean to
I love you
Please answer me
It can't be over
We've made so many amazing memories together don't just give up now

I scoff and delete his conversation. I go to my contact list and delete his number, I go on facebook and change my relationship status to single, I delete all of our pictures which is the hardest part. Tears fall as I go through hundreds of pictures and memories we made. I miss how he used to look at me, how we were always so honest, when I was able to trust him, When we were the "it" couple, When we had our fights and me would always make it up t me by getting my roses and chocolates.