Love Me For Me

Chp. 35

Rosie P.O.V

It's been four days since Cody and I fought and we haven't talked to each other at all. It feels like hell not having him hold me tight or tell me that everything is going to be alright. But the thing that hurts the most is that we haven't exchanged I love you's. The fans have somewhat caught on, on what was going on between Cody and I. Trust me though, I've tried talking to him but we always ending up yelling at each other.  I still have the bracelet on but it just doesn't shine anymore.

I just want things to go back and time and maybe things would be different. I know that I should've told him but I was afraid that we'd fight about it. Well I guess I was right about one thing... Cody said last night that he wished that he would of never asked to go on that break so he could take me out on our 1st date. That felt like someone was stabbing me a repeatadly in the chest and I couldnt answer him. I know that he's hurt but what if he really meant it?

I'm alone once again in this hotel suite since Cody has decided to avoid me yet again. I heard that my friend Selena Gomez was going to be in London this week so maybe I could hang with her. Selena and I had met while she was shopping at the malls back in New York so I guess we hit it off really well.

Me: Hey are you in London???

SelenaXD: Yeah do you wanna come chill with me? You need to give me details about you and Cody btw. 

It seems like everyone wants to know whats going on with the "Biggest Australian Couple".

Me: Trust me its a lot of stuff. I'll meet you by the Big Ben in like an hour.

SelenaXD: Okay see you then xoxo

I got up and walked towards my suitcase. I took out Cody's sweatshirt that sent a pain through my heart. ignored it and grabbed a floral tanktop, pink flowy skirt, and my blue flats. I brushed out my hair looking at how blonde and boring it looked. It was just pin-straight blonde and it had no highlights to it.

I locked the room and started heading out the hotel. I put my sunglasses on walking towards the  Big Ben. While I was walking some fans recognized me and started running towards me. One thing I did not want to deal with is his fans.

"Whats going on between you and Cody?"

One yelled giving me attitude. I rolled my eyes but she couldn't see since my sunglasses were still on. "Nothing were fine I really cant talk." I said walking in between them. I heard one of them call me a wanker and I just ignore it holding in a laugh. They honestly think that they bother me when they that?

Paparazzi kept their distance probably afraid that Cody will come out of the blue and snap. Even if Cody was here he wouldn't do anything to stop them from attacking me. These whole entire four days we haven't cuddled, held hands, hug, kiss, or say I love you.

He never bothered sticking up for me when they called me a slut or called me fat. He just doesnt love or care about me anymore.  I felt a tear run down my face I wept it away quickly  before they could get a picture. I took off my sunglasses putting on a strong face.

After about thirty minutes I heard Selena call out my name. I couldn't help but run over towards her and burst into tears. She hugged me tightly trying to make me calm down. I was broken, my heart was shredded, and my boyfriend hates me. "Shh it'll be okay." She lightly rocked me back and forth rubbing my lower back. "What happened?"

I pulled away, wiping my eyes, as I steadied my breathing. "Let's go sit down." I nodded my head as she grabbed my hand walking towards a small cafe. We sat down outside so no one could hear the conversation.

"So tell me everything that happened." I sighed but started telling her everything. At the end of my story I was in tears again. 'W-what do I do? I-I don't even know if we're dating anymore." I sobbed bringing my hands to my face.