Love Me For Me

Chp. 36

Alli P.O.V

It's been a tiring day with worrying about Rosie and Cody. Cody hasn't been talking much ever since they started fighting. I knew that Rosie's recent tweets were about Cody and they were breaking my heart. Their relationship was falling apart and I know that Rosie and Cody couldn't handle it. Personally I don't think Cody should've freaked out that badly about it. I understand that she was afraid of Cody's reaction but now she seems to be terrified of him. Cody shouldn't get overly jealous about every guy that looks towards Rosie. I think Cody should learn to trust guys around Rosie and know that Rosie would never cheat.

She truly loves him and I don't think Cody sees that. I've heard them fighting and what he says is quite hurtful. All Rosie is trying to do is save their relationship and Cody is pushing her away. She's rarely in the hotel and she doesn't talk to anyone. Their fight always ends with Cody getting the last word and then slamming a door. She cries in the hallway almost every night either talking to her mom  or Kailey wishing that she wasn't here and that she was back home. 

Right now I'm sitting in the hotel waiting for Rosie to come back. She's been hanging out all day probably trying to forget about the fight she had yesterday with Cody. On the Ustream I was surprised that she had dyed her again but it hurt to see her fake smile. I could see the pain through her eyes and the weakness in her smile.

I pulled out my phone and logged onto Twitter. My eyes almost started to pour out tears when I saw Rosie's tweet.

@RosieOfficial: Lying, Crying, Fighting, Slowly Dying</3

The tweet was basically describing what was going on between Cody and her. I heard the hotel door close which made me turn around. "Alli?" She seemed surprised to see me. "Rosie." She seemed to be shaking and almost about to cry. "What's wrong?" I walked towards her pulling her into a tight hug. "I-if C-Cody and I fight I'm b-breaking up with him." She was in tears and I felt so bad for her. "Are you going to talk to him again?" She nodded her head, trying to control her breathing.

"I can't go through this anymore." I held a tight grip on my bestfriend as she started to cry again. She was like my sister and it hurt me to see her go through this. "I know just try to take things slowly." She slowly pulled away wiping her eyes. She pulled her hair back into a small bun. "Wish me luck." She whispered before walking towards the elevators.

Rosie P.O.V

I was shaking the whole entire time in the elevator. What would happen if Cody and I really did break up though? I couldn't think clearly as the elevator doors opened. Time seemed to go by slowly when I walked down the hallway. I was holding back the tears as I was facing the door that awaited my future on the other side.

I opened the door slowly and saw Cody sitting on the couch. He looked over towards me but snapped his head back to the television. I might as well go get my stuff and head to New York. Wait what the hell am I saying?

"Cody?" My voice was soft since it was sore from all of the yelling and crying. He didn't even flinch at the sound of my voice. The first tear rolled down my cheek making me grip onto the chair. "Please answer me." I begged. I was loosing focus and I felt dizzy. I couldn't handle it anymore I felt like I was back in high school. Back to where the pain all happened and where the scars happened.

"Why?" I snapped my head at him surprised that he answered me. I was speechless and it was hard to talk with me trying to calm down my tears. "I miss you." He shook his head at me which made me want to die.

"You missed me? Then why were you with Selena?" I was shocked at how he being a complete jerk when all I wanted to do was talk. I swallowed the anger that was in my throat as I tried to calm down. "Do you think that it's easy for me to stay inside here? We fight constantly over every thing!"