Bad Boy, Good Lips

Chapter 34

Chapter 34

I'm still absorbing the scene that has happened earlier. Grace and Robi? Yep I know that Grace had a crush on Robi but I didn't know that they we're a thing, partida bestfriend ko pa si Graciella pero wala akong alam.

"Hey what are you thinking?" I am with Luke right now, tinawagan ko siya kanina dahil alam kong hindi na ako babalikan ni Grace. Mabuti na lang at tapos na ang meeting niya. Nahiya naman ako kila Brent kaya nagpasundo na lang ako kay Luke kaya nandito kami ngayon sa condo niya

"Naisip ko lang kung bakit wala manlang sinabi sa akin si Grace tungkol sa relassyon nila ni Robi." Sagot ko.

"maybe she's not sure about their relationship and she don't wanna jinx what they have." Paliwanag niya

"But it looks like it's Robi who's chasing her." I told him

"Babe, I don't know what to say. Robi didn't even mention any single thing about them." Sagot niya

"Nagaalala lang kasi ako kay Grace." Malungkot na sabi ko.

"Don't worry too much babe. She'll be fine." Pagkumbinsi ni Luke. "Anyway, kalian graduation mo?" He asked

"Uhm next week Friday. Attend ka?" I asked

"Fuck. I'll be flying to Australia Wednesday next week and I'll be back 2 weeks after." Nalungkot ako bigla sa sinabi ni Luke

"Oh.. It's okay, I know you're a busy man." I said hiding my disappointment

"I'm sorry babe. That deal is important." I felt a little hurt because of his statement

"No it's fine. Who am I to demand of your time." I said

"babe..."

"Alis na ako, baka nasa condo na si Grace." Sabi ko bago tumayo

"I'll send you home." He offered

"No I'm good. Don't worry about me, sorry for disturbing you." I said

"Babe naman, I need to close that deal I hope you understand." He pleaded

"Who said that I don't understand you? Ang hirap lang kasi... hindi ko alam kung saan ako lulugar, di ko alam kung kalian ako pwedeng mag demand ng oras mo, kung kalian ako pwedeng magselos." Siguro dahil na rin sa nangyari ngayong araw at sa mga sinabi ni Grace kanina kaya ko nasabi ang mga bagay na yon.

"What are you saying? Ano ba naman yan Sophie, bigla ka na lang nagkaka ganyan!" Nainis na rin si Luke sa inaasal ko

"Ngayon ikaw pa maiinis? Ano ba tayo Luke? Hindi ko lang kasi maintindihan, I'm a girl ang tagal na nating ganito pero hindi ko alam kung ano talaga tayo." Sabi ko

"Damn Sophie! Isn't it enough that I love you?" Inis na tanong niya

"You know what? Talk to me kapag malinaw na sa isip mo kung ano ba tayo at kung hanggang saan tayo." I told him before I walked away

Ayoko mang aminin pero umasa akong susundan niya ako noong iwan ko siya, pero hindi yata ako ganoong kahalaga sa kanya para habulin ako.

Pinara ko ang pinaka unang taxi na dumaan, pagkasakay ko doon na tumulo ang luhang kanina ko pa pinipigil, Ayoko namang umiyak sa lobby ng building ng condo ni Luke magmumukha naman akong kawawa non, kahit awang awa ako sa sarili ko ngayon.

"Iha ayos ka lang ba?" Tanong ni mamang driver. I looked at him at the rear view mirror he looked 50 years old

"Tay, nasaktan na po ba kayo?" Kung nasa ibang sitwasyon siguro ako pagtatawanan ko ang sarili ko

"Anak, normal lang na masaktan ka, alam kong dahil sa pagibig yang mga luha nay an, pero sumugal ka eh dapat handa kang maramdaman lahat ng pwede mong maramdaman." He answered. "Maitanong ko lang, ano bang problema niyo?" dagdag na tanong niya

"Wala po tay, di po kasi makaka attend ng graduation ko yung boyfriend ko, ay m-mali d-di ko po pala b-boyfriend di ko nga po alam kung a-ano k-kami eh." Naiiyak kong sagot

"Problema nga yan! Nako!" Nagkamot pa siya ng ulo bago dagdagan ang sinasabi niya. "Pero may rason ang lahat ng bagay, malay mo nag hiihintay siya ng tamang timing para sa inyong dalawa." Sabi pa niya

"Siguro nga po. Salamat po hah? Medyo gumaan yung pakiramdam ko dahil sa inyo. Jan na lang po ako sa tabi." Nagpababa ako sa tapat ng isang convenience store malapit sa condo ko.

"Sige anak, malalampasan mo rin yan! Mahal ka non." Nakangiting sabi ni manong bago paandarin ang taxi niya

I bought four hotdog sandwiches, a big slurpee, and a liter of ice cream. Yep, I'll eat my sadness away. Don't judge, iniisip ko kasi na baka nasa condo na si Graciella kaya dinamihan ko na

"Hey, you're home." Nagulat ako nang pagpasok ko ay naka higa si Grace sa sofa habang nanonood ng movie. A sad one.

"Yup. I bought foods." I hide the sadness of my voice

"Wait, did you cry?" She asked

"N-nope!" A defensively answered

"Liar! Look at your eyes it's all puffy." Di ko namalayan na natitigan na pala ako ni Grace

"Don't mind me. Just tell me what the hell is happening between you and Robi" I asked her

"No! You tell me first what happened to you, sinaktan ka nanaman ba niya?" she asked with concern

Huminga muna ako ng malalim bago magsalita.

"I told him about our graduation and yeah, he can't make it. I snapped, madami akong iniisip then ayon I asked him kung ano ba kami, he didn't say anything." I told her

"It sucks, but atleast you let him know what you really feel about your set up." She said

"The sad part is, he didn't do anything about it, he just stand there and watch me walk away. Alam mo yon, yung pakiramdam na yes given the fact na you both love each other pero hindi sapat may kulang. I can't even tell my parents about him kasi hindi ko alam kung ano ba kami." I let out my feelings

"Siguro naguguluhan lang din yung tao, bago sa kanya tong mga nangyayari na to sa inyo-sa kanya. Baka he still can't give his all out, maybe he's waiting for the right time para doon." She explained

"I already gave him the time, siguro naman sapat na yon para maisip niya kung saan kami papunta pero hindi eh, paranf naenjoy pa niya yung no commitment type of relationship. Ang hirap kasi, I can't demand his time I can't be jealous, I can't act like a clingy girlfriend na kahit minsan lang ay gusto kong i-try."

"Sa tingin ko naman marerealize niya kung anong pwedeng mawala sa kanya the time you walked away from him. I can see that he loves you and like what I've said maybe he's still weighing things and figuring out the things he can offer to you." Nakangiti niyang sabi

Natapos ang paguusap namin ni Grace nang may tumawag sa kanya, mukhang di pa niya talaga kayang magkwento ng mga nangyayari sa kanya dahil lagi niyang iniiba ang topic kapag napupunta sa kanila ni Robi, but I know time will come.

Like what I have with Luke, time will come para maging malinaw ang lahat sa amin.